the konrad times

early sat morning

2009-04-25T05:14:00.002+08:00

yet again.
like it always works out to be.
i lose my temper.
she admits i fucked up.
and things go from bad to worse.

over and over again.
i'm so tired of all these,
yet i still can't find a solution.
its been,
hmmm,
1,2,3,4. blablabla.
probably uncountable.

why the fuck does shit like these have to keep coming back to haunt me?
argh.
fuck you konrad.
you're a piece of shit.

early saturday morning.

2009-04-25T04:32:00.003+08:00

i really don't understand why do things have to be like this always.
i wished i had all the time in the world.
so that things wouldn't be like how they are.
i'm trying so hard sometimes.
there hasn't been once,
that i have not gave my all.
and yet,
it isn't enough.
maybe i'm really that fucked up.
its always me,
screwing things up.
its always me,
not being able to meet your needs.
its always me,
being the insensitive one.

the things that've happened recently. just reminds me of the past. i can't help but to think back, and i find myself back at square one. what've i done wrong. its deja-vu all over.

i feel so so so fucked now.
argh.

i miss the times when our love was so carefree.

2009-03-23T03:54:00.001+08:00

I <3 YOU

early monday morning.

2009-03-23T03:37:00.002+08:00

its been a really long time since i posted anything.

6th months has passed with that special someone.
yet,
i'm still feeling so lost tonight.
i never knew,
that whatever I've done,
was in vain.
Rain or shine,
I've always been there.
yet,
you still feel the way that you feel.
Maybe I'm still the shitty Konrad that i was a year ago today.
the big screw up that couldn't be bothered bout the direction of life.
whatever i've done til this day,
i've done it for you.
i'm trying so hard to meet you on days that i have not slept or feel really tired.
but yet,
you still the way you feel.
i've gave up what i wanted,
to spend more time with you and i was overenjoyed when i knew i had a 8-5 posting,
b'cos i knew i had more time with you,
but that doesn't seem to be the point now ain't it?
i've gave up alot of myself for you,
and i don't mind,
neither do i wanna bitch bout it.
sigh.
i'm just really lost now.
haven't we been really happy?
i just didn't know why you have to say the things that you said.
it really hurts,
to know that whatever i've done,
isn't really appreciated.
i just can't seem to figure out whats wrong.
probably its me.
it has always been me all my life.
i'm always the fucking problem in everything i've done.
...

i love you,
i miss you,
i wanna spend the rest of my life with you.

a.d.e

2008-12-16T05:00:00.002+08:00

& all I know is
You got to give me everything
and nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me,
and I know you would.

I'll give you everything that I am
I'm handin' over everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
and I Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up.

with all my heart,
i love you.

early thursday morning

2008-12-11T06:27:00.002+08:00

hey people.

oh my. fucking can't sleep again. been 3days straight in a row. fuck. the day before yest i slept for 2hours. yest i slept for 3hours and i have not had any slept today yet and i gotta go to the polyclinic at 730am to get my damn mc later. grrr.

b'day's coming in 3days time, oh man, i haven't really made any plans as of yet. but having her by my side would be the best gift i could get. seriously. last year's b'day at zouk with the bffs wasn't so bad but the years before were ones to forget. so so so fucked up man. i'm so looking forward to spending the holiday season with b, especially christmas because for once during christmas, i'm not waiting under the mistletoe. weeeee. and i hope i'll have someone to cuddle and kiss during the strike at 12am this new year's. oh man, so many first times. weeee. hahahaha. being in love is just so lovely isn't it. especially with the girl of your dreams. i know i'm one hell of a lucky guy to have someone like her in my life.

anyway, i miss b many! ahhh. she's having her exams and i'm trying pretty hard not to distract her. baby, i believe that you'll do fine this time round. no worries yeah. i believe in you. and oh yeah, she came over the other day and i actually cooked for her, ah, though it wasn't anything special, i couldn't quite believe i would actually cook for someone besides myself. hahaha. but oh well, i think she liked it, erm, i hope she did, i forgot to ask b. hahahaha.

ahh. and it has been a great few weeks well spent with her. almost meeting everyday yet again. be it dinner or chilling or going to town, its always wonderful. her smile mesmerizes me many a time and i'm so totally addicted to it. even though we just got past our 3rd monthsary, i felt like i've known her for a super long time. words can't explain the closeness between us, the loving you show, the hugs and kisses you give, the words you say and the smiles you put on my face. i appreciate everything you've done for me and baby, you feel so apart of the house whenever you're crashing over. you fit into my life so perfectly and you made everything so so different. you're the reason i became much much happier, you're the reason i became who i used to be. you're everything to me and yes dear, i love you with all my heart.

oh well. i guess thats kinda all i have to say for today. real tired. and here's one of my pics taken with her. sweet huh? check out that pretty one beside me. :)

late friday night

2008-11-28T22:23:00.002+08:00

hello everyone.

my wonderful girlfriend is beside me now and she's forcing me to blog by tickling me. hahaha. what a way to motivate me huh b? hahaha. okay, so she's over at my place watching saw V , eating my ordered pizza, and taking up my precious bed space besides she has a big bum bum. hahahaha. okay no, i'm joking on the last one.

anyway, the past month have been wonderful with her. its like we got to see each other almost everyday for the past 45 days and its been wonderful. i can never imagine myself being so close to someone ever. i feel like i've knew you all my life b, its like yeah, i'm quite confident that i know you really well. =) ahh. best thing is, we could talk bout anything in this word. hahaha. we could talk and talk and talk, and laugh bout the same things all day long. hahaha. and we could poke fun at each other all day long too. which i really like, anyone knows me well enough knows that i love to disturb other people. :D being evil is being konrad.

okay, anyway, i'm gonna dedicate this paragraph to that special girl that's made of my dreams, ahh. thanks b, especially for taking care of me when i was really sick the other day, for everything you've done for me, the cooking, the small lil' surprises and the laughters that you've brought. you're right beside me now watching tv and yeah i'm here typing this. b, you're all that matters to me, you know how special you are b and you know proud how i am to have. =) i want everyone to know how nice of a gf you've been and that you're mine now and forever. i love you baby and i could've never been happier.

late tuesday evening

2008-11-25T18:53:00.003+08:00

hello everyone.

ahh. finally, i've time to blog. life's been pretty chill for the past month, got posted to my new camp at ayer rajah as an auto-tech. ahh. holiday camp yo. eat,sleep,play psp, listen to ipod, talk to her, book out. hahaha. life's good fo' sho man. haha. anyway, for almost everyday for the past month, b has been keeping me companied every single day. how nice of her la. she was there to take care of me when i was sick, and yeah, whenever i felt like meeting, i know she would say yes. =) and yeah, she wants to spend time with me many many, yes i know dear. hahaha. ahh. i'm having the time of my life for the past couple of months and yeah, she's the main factor of it. oh man, don't have much time to blog, gotta meet her for dinner, she prepared something for me. i'll leave one photoshopped pic of how much she means to me.

say i'm dumb, go ahead, i don't care?

The girl of my life

2008-11-17T22:39:00.004+08:00

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early monday morning

2008-10-27T01:28:00.002+08:00

hello everyone.

i'm back from tekong. oh man, life's been rather shitty inside. don't really clique with my bunk mates but oh well, i got to know 5pretty cool guys. nothing much to talk bout, but yeah, ns is a waste of time and it psychologically brainwashes you to be dumb and follow commands. grrr. anyway, since i booked out, majority of the days have been put aside for b! weeee. i spent 1 and a half day with her straight after i booked out and that sweetie pie came to pick me up at pasir ris even though she was late. ahhh. went to eat dim sum then dbl o to club after and we chilled til the next day night and i went to zouk after with my ns buddies, jonathan, yuh chu, donn, joanne and marcus. oh man.partied so so hard last night. drank alot of booze too.weee. we went to the national museum just now to look at some pic gallery. ahh. both of us has a touch of class okay! we enjoy these kinda stuff many many. right b? went to movie after and met joshua along the way for dinner-cum-ns-story-telling. haha.

anyway,there's nothing else i look forward to than to see her when i book out. oh my. 2 weeks felt like 2 freaking months. hope i get a 8am-5pm posting so i could spend more time with her. these 3days passed by damn fast la!!! i wished i had more time for you b. there hasn't been a minute that passed during the past 2weeks that you weren't on my mind. oh man. i miss you so. ahh. guess i gotta go. wanna talk to her. ciao people. blog again next week.

you and me, we're gonna last a lifetime together.

that dreaded day

2008-10-09T01:52:00.003+08:00

well well. here i am, 9th october and i'm 12hours away from enlistment. shit, did time pass by fast.

ahh. i've spent everyday of the pass 2plus weeks with b. and she has been sucha wonderful girl every single time we met. thank you so so much b. and today, she accompanied me throughout the day and night and yeah, even though its a little quieter than usual, but i still really really enjoyed her company. ahhh. i'm so gonna miss her so much, more than anyone and anything else. no words can describe how much i love her. and everything has been just so perfect since i met her and she made my last month of freedom really really worthwhile. well, she's mine, all mine. :D

anyway, yeap, she already gave me a lifetime worth of memories within 43days. ahh. there'll still be many many more to come. and i'm gonna miss you and reminisce bout you just as much as you would b. you'll always be in my heart and mind no matter what i'm doing.

oh man, i don't wish for tonight to end. cause i want the cuddles and kisses to last, and time will stop at that moment... ahhhh.

well. this will be my last blog in awhile. so i'll end it off with something for you b.

What is love,
but a kiss on a rainy day,
a smile that won't go away,
a safe place to run to.
What is love,
but a complicated simple truth,
a bond between me and you.
It's the little things like holding hands
and longing stares,
that means the world to me
and I don't want to share them with anyone
but you in this lifetime.
Perhaps you'd be a bit surprised how often,
a joke,
a song,
a memory
will make me think of you.
I've searched my soul,
and know that its you.
so ADELINE GOH SI YING,
you might only be someone in this world,
but you are the world in someone's eyes.
meeting you was the best thing that ever happened,
and i'll cherish you with everything i've got.
so with all my heart and soul,
i would just wanna say that
I LOVE YOU,
and you'll always be my #1.

early tuesday morning

2008-10-07T02:22:00.002+08:00

hello everyone.

well well, i just came back. and i met my pretty baby just now, and it was a great 1 monthsary. she cooked for me! weee. the first girlfriend to ever to. and seriously, all 4 dishes were really nice b. ahhh. it could work out that you'll be a wonderful housewife in the future. hahaha. and! she gave me a nice lil' surprise, something that really really left me pretty speechless, it was sweet, it was simple and it was lovely dear. =))

and, she acutally took her time to actually dictate out all the happenings that has happened ever since we met to me. everything from how i was like before we met and after we met, the first kiss, the first time we held hands, and some things that said that made her smile and the ups and downs. weeeeee. there has never been a girl thats sweeter than you b. and you know, throughout the entire day, i was pretty speechless becuase of the things you've done for me. she just confessed bout everything she've felt bout me, and b, i believe in you, and this feeling will not go away. thank you so much for everything you've done for me. its gonna be a long road ahead, but yes, i know you'll always be there whenever i need someone. i love you so.

If one day you find someone better than me,
I hope she feels the exact same way I feel when Im with you.
I hope she makes you laugh
and I hope she makes you smilebut most of all,
I hope that never happens
because I neverwant anybody to get the chance to see how amazing you are
and that smile of yours belongs to me.
I love you adeline goh si ying.
this love will not fade.
you'll always be my #1.
and to love and to be loved,
is the greatest happiness of existence.
you'll always be the one.

love ade.

2008-10-06T00:07:00.003+08:00

happy 1 monthsary baby!
ahhh.
its been a wonderful wonderful month for us.
a month have felt like a year.
and i'm gonna keep this simple.

you're the best i ever had.
never has someone been so sweet.
and never has someone brought me so much big smiles.
so with all my heart,
adeline goh si ying,
i love you.
<3

Adeline Goh Si Ying.

2008-10-03T05:45:00.001+08:00

When you say you love me,
the world stops for a moment,
the stars stop shining,
the moon stops glowing,
the earth stops breathing,
all that's alive is our love ...
I love you.

she's oh so right for me.

early thursday morning

2008-10-02T03:01:00.002+08:00

hi everyone,

oh my, i'm left with 7 days flat. darn. hahaha. time flies. and i met b again today. well, i ta pao-ed zhi cha for her today and we had some super ghetto picnic underneath a block somewhere near her place. dinner menu, sweet and sour pork, french beans with mince meat, prawn omelette! hahaha. had a super wonderful "picnic", i know she had a good time too. then we met her sis, and went to west mall to walk around after and walked back to her place after, i've enjoyed long walks til i met her because i'm super lazy, but well well, baby changed my perception of it yet again. haha. and i made laugh til she dropped on the floor. hahahaa. and i was playing mr strong man carrying her around, and she fell twice. hahahah. sorry baby!!! hahaha.

yest we went to that henderson wave thingy, and we walked from mount faber to kent ridge park, super super jackass. hahaha. and we actually got caught in the rain when we got to thetop of kent ridge, and we walked in the rain hand in hand and we actually did something funny under the pouring rain. ahh. i love you dear.

oh well, i just want to let everyone know that i've the bestest best gf in the world, and i love her many many. and baby, i'll stand true by you, i know you will too. and words can't show how much i love you but yeah, you know. =)

7.17am

2008-09-30T07:20:00.002+08:00

she randomly called just to say i love you.
how sweet of her la!!!!!
i love you many many baby! hahahaha.
and i thought you slept with your fingers on your phone again. hahaha.
off to bed.
what a way to start off the day.
she's the sweetest ever.
<3

early tuesday morning

2008-09-30T06:43:00.002+08:00

sup y'all.

once again, i can't go to bed. and the reason is there's only 9days of freedom left. fuckfuckfuck. i've not had enough fun, i've not partied enough, i've not spent enough time with my best friends and lastly, i've not spent enough time with my love. ahhh. i remembered so vaguely how i told the bffs that i had 6more months la. no worries. and fuck, now there's like 9days left. oh man. yeah, ns isn't really a big deal, everyone has to go through it, but yeah, i've to let go of my life to serve the fucking nation for 22months. what the heck man. ahh. its driving me crazy to think i've so only 9days left to enjoy myself. and i know she'll be there everyday if i want her to be.

fucking crazy thoughts are running through my mind now.
i'm being paranoid again.
shit.
maybe i should go to sleep.
yeah.
good morning world.
and good night to myself.

everything went from wrong to right because of you b.

2008-09-28T06:07:00.001+08:00

I've been looking for that someone,
I'll never make it on my own.
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.
When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again?
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

More and more, I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head up high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

baby.

2008-09-21T06:11:00.004+08:00

she's that one special girl,
which placed the smile back on my face,
which gave me everything that i needed to get me through the day.
there hasn't been any thats sweeter,
there hasn't been any that made me feel like how i feel right now.
you gave me your heart,
and i gave you my everything.
you said i love you,
and i said i love you with all my heart and soul.
baby,
i know its real.
i gave up looking for that one special girl back then,
when i figured i wasn't good enough,
with my moral as low as ever,
there you were,
and i knew,
you had be that girl that i had go the distance with.
you took my breath away,
you gave me everything that i once, could only hope and wish for.
the love,
the sweetness,
the feeling i get when i walk down the street with you.
i'll take you by the hand and take you somewhere new,
because i know b,
that you're the right one for me.
<3

good morning revivals.

2008-09-19T07:41:00.000+08:00

I want you around in the morning and I want to know you're legally required to be there b.

early tuesday night

2008-09-16T21:45:00.002+08:00

hellooo. just got back from riding around and after that went to sell something with norman. hahaha. i had sucha good time talking to him today. i had sucha good laugh outta at it, and as always i'm at the end of his jokes. hahaha. this was what came outta that conversation.

norman: how was all the dates with your girlfriend so far?
konrad: just call her ade la.
norman: okay fine! how was all the dates wth ADE so far?
konrad: been wonderful man.
norman: great, then how was the first time you held hands and kissed?
konrad: (shows handsign, _l_) thats confidential la fucker.
konrad: but fuck man, i was so fucking nervous when i wanted to hold her hand, you know, i was going like should i or shouldn't i, should i or shouldn't i?
norman: fuck la, you weak sia.
konrad: fuck man, first time right?
norman: you dare to 180 10fucking steps, you dare to 360 the stupid box jump on first attempt, you dare to ride downhill, you don't fucking dare to hold her hand?
konrad: (silence)

and both of us burst of in laughter for at least 3minutes. i was laughing so hard and i got owned. hahahahaha. fuck you norman. hahahaahahaha. oh man, i'm laughing and typing this, well. hahahaha. first times are always the most nervous. hor hor hor? hahahaa. okay fine. i shall stop. okay bye. hahaha

late sunday night.

2008-09-14T23:47:00.003+08:00

hellooooo.
well. it has been a wonderful weekend for me and i'm pretty sure it was for her too. ahh. it was a wonderful 24hours with you b. =) well, movie, dim sum, chilling out and the rest is for us to know. hahaha.

yeap. some picsssssss. there were quite a handful, but as usual, i spoilt alot of pics.

as close as i ever got. haha.
hi, i'm her younger brother.
candidthe only one i did with a proper expression.
and one for you, i'm a junkie.

hafiz.

2008-09-13T06:49:00.003+08:00

this picture deserves its own post. hahahaahahha. check out hafiz(left) and munzir(right) and hafiz's legendary triple chin. hahaahhaahahahhaahaahaha!! no pun intended, you're still my abang. hahahaahahahaahahahaah!! fuck i can't stop laughing. you got owned tonight hafiz. hahaahahaha!!!

b.

2008-09-12T02:53:00.000+08:00

'Cause tonight is the night when two becomes one.

early thursday

2008-09-11T05:04:00.003+08:00

hasn't been a fantastic day.
i miss you so much suddenly.
ah.
i just hope i didn't do anything wrong.
and i'm real sorry if i did b.

early wednesday morning.

2008-09-10T06:39:00.004+08:00

*following was deleted because i'm giving you some face girl* haha.

anyway, yeah, caught forgetting sarah marshall with b at cathay, fuck and the show was funny. and i was pretty sure the show had more shots of dicks than boobies, in fact, there were no boobies at all. oh man. darn. anyway, yeah, the day was wonderful as usual with her company. and we kinda took a few pics, i'll post up the nicer ones. anyway, b, everything you texted me bout, yes i do know. and i love you too.

mid tuesday morning

2008-09-09T09:43:00.001+08:00

i just realised i'm 30 days away from enlistment. fuck that shit.
22months.
ahhhhhhhhhh.
konrad is so not looking forward to it.

you.

2008-09-08T05:10:00.004+08:00

When you talk to me
I swear the whole world stops
You're my sweetheart
And I'm so glad that you are mine
You are one of a kind
And girl,
I'm so into you,
With every kiss and every hug,
You make me fall in love.
You know I love you,
You know that I'll be true,
You know that I won't lie,
You know that I would try,
To be your everything .
I don't need anyone else,
I just need your all or nothing,
Cause Baby, you're the best part of my life.

early sunday morning

2008-09-07T05:34:00.003+08:00

helllllloooo people!

had to reluctantly get outta bed today because si kiat needed to fix his bike and he's in need of sleep when he met me. hahahaha. don't ride your motor when you're sleepy you idiot. haha. went to hang out with munzir and him after at west coast. ahhh. i lost 2games to munzir in winning eleven 11 on psp today in the most extreme conditions, we were playing the damn psps with rain smacking on the screen, on our face, ahh. everywhere. hahaha. super hardcore extreme gaming conditions. hahaha. fuckkkk, i've not lost a game in winning eleven years. darn it. bloody weather. oh yeah, its a soccer game. haha.

anyhoooooo, i met my dearest ade after. haha. had coffee bean, then headed to town, it was like 1230 am when we got there and it was a pretty last minute decision. andddd. we walked, and walked, and walked. i've seriously never enjoyed sucha long walk in my life. i would be complaining if it was with others. butttt hand in hand, it was a really nice walk. hahahaha. well. as usual, she's really sweet, and i mean really sweet. haha. ahhh. the rest is for me to know. and her sandals gave way half way. hahahahaha. and i need new ones too. and she bought me a fire extinguisher, literally. jyeah. hahaha. was supposed to send her home by 2 but i was a lil' late. and i liked how the lift was really slow. hahahahahahaha. anyway, she called me b. ahhhhh. that put a very very big smile on my face. oh man. been a wonderful day.

and oh yeah, i really really don't think i need riding in my life anymore. there comes a point in life when it has to stop, and i'm thinking bout stopping. overly lazy. and i've not rode seriously for at least a couple of months. actually, ever since i won the comp, i don't feel the want to anymore. oh man... anyway, gotta sleep man. super tired. so yeah, be back soon. ciao guys.

and hafiz, break up is the answer. you and i know it, don't hurt yourself more and don't walk the road that i've been through, if you don't see her as the one, there's no point in holding on. there's always someone better. and please, nc-16. haha

you brought the colours and smiles back into my life.
you're my sweet escape.

early friday morning.

2008-09-05T04:50:00.003+08:00

hello everyone.

ahh. can't really fall asleep. was kinda going through all the msges that superwoman had sent me over the past 13days. oh, guess what hun, today is 14th day. and i very dearly remember this.

hahaha. well. you didn't expect me to save that right. but so happened i did. haha. oh guess what, she just made me smile again by texting me randomly in the middle of her sleep. hahaha. oh man. have this girl blown me away. no wonder she's my superwoman. anyway, last night was a disaster trying to fall asleep. she'll probably know what happened, shan't say it out. i should be in bed now. but, once again, i find myself thinking bout her. she gives me something to smile bout before i sleep, and after i open my eyes everyday without fail. awwww. she's the best thing that has happened to me in years... ahh. <3.>

trust me, i wouldn't ruin it babe. <3

=)

2008-09-04T19:40:00.002+08:00

she's pretty, i'm not.
she likes this, but i think i look funny.
i like this but you can't see the pretty one.

to that one special girl.

2008-09-04T06:47:00.003+08:00

i wish the night never ended.
i wish to turn back time.
i wish you never said what you said.
i wish that i've not fallen so deep.
i wish that i never have to feel like this again.
i wish everything would've turned out the way i wanted it to.
i wish i said what i wanted to say.

it happened six months ago.
it's happening now.
why do you have to be like this konrad...
why ain't you good enough...
why does this always happen to me...
why do i always lose someone when i've started to give my everything...

deep down.
i wish i said i'll give you my all.
i wish i said i'll mend all the pieces of your broken heart.
i wish i said don't worry, everything's gonna be fine.
i wish i said i'll eliminate all your insecurities.
i wish i said you're the best thing that has happened to me in a long time.
i wish i said i <3 you.

yes ade. i've fallen for you.
and i love you.
you know i speak of nothing but the truth.
and now.
with all my heart.
i'll tell you that.
everything's gonna be alright.
and i'll walk you through it all.
the good and the bad.
so,
i wish that you'll....................................................

early tuesday morning.

2008-09-02T04:12:00.002+08:00

heya.
i'm actually having really big contemplations on the frame i should be getting.
somehow i wished to get a transition double, and continue riding bmx.
or get a ns capital or usb molly.
shit man. i wished i would get sponsored by some mtb company in singapore so i wouldn't need to contemplate so much on frames.

ahhh. enlistment is 38days away. i wished i had more time now. i was looking forward to it. til i met this special girl. this girl literally blew me away like no one else ever did. i never expected myself to actually feel this way bout things. time is super limited. i only wished i had more time to get to know her better. but sigh. i don't know. i'm actually really worried bout how things would work out. i kinda regretted not holding her hand on the walk home. i blew my chance. ahhh. oh fuck. maybe you just think too much konrad... well... everyday, i'm falling deeper and hoping that this would somehow work out well. i really don't wanna lose someone else that i care so much for. but, you just make me feel that everything's gonna be okay. before i met you, my life was in pieces. whole year has been shit, and i thought ns would occupy me enough to actually help me forget my troubles. but then you came along. and everything just seemed so... right. i've never been happier the entire year. i wished i could tell you that i wanna be your guy, but somehow i just don't feel good enough either... a part of me has been lost over the past few years. and thats confidence. slowly but surely, i hope to gain it back. nevertheless, there'll always be a special place for you in my heart.

tell me, that you want me as much as i want you to be a part of my life.
and i'll give you my all.
i promise.
i meant it when i said i'm going head over heels for you.
and baby, you're that special girl.
<3.

superwoman.

2008-08-31T16:19:00.001+08:00

I don’t know how to say I wanna be with you,
I don’t know how to start,
But as each day goes by I wish you would open your heart.
Sometimes I wish I could dream forever,
Then that way we’ll always be together.
Unfortunately though, I wake up,
And I hate how reality always seems to suck.
At home it’ll be just another day,
Another day that I’ll try to suppress my feelings for you away.

late sunday morning

2008-08-31T10:48:00.003+08:00

so fucking disapponted i got knocked out last night at double o.
oh man.
its the first,
and i hope the last time it ever happens.
i was having so much fun yo.
but at least i remembered everything that happened.
the memories will always be there.=)
and if it was one person whom i needed last night,
it was my superwoman.
i really really didn't mean for it to happen babe.
i'm sorry girl.

early friday evening

2008-08-29T16:05:00.002+08:00

been a week since i got to know this special somebody. haha. :D ahhh. last night was sin yi's b'day celebration at jurong east k-box. okay, i was suppose to be the surprise and i think i was the one who got surprised instead because i was the guy with 5 girls, but yeah at least i already got to know em sometime before. hahaha. but anyway, still enjoyed myselfloads. alot of of jay songs, even though i couldn't project my voice very well. hope sin yi enjoyed herself too.

anddd, i'm sorry that i didn't cheer superwoman uppp. she didn't seem to be very happy yest. well. cheer up babe! like you said, its a brand new day. yeahh, i'm looking forward to your text later on. so yeap,thats bout it, going with luke and co. now. be back to update soooon.

wise men say,
only fools rush in,
but i can't help,
falling in love with you.

early thursday morning.

2008-08-28T04:44:00.003+08:00

i used to miss that feeling of,
having someone to text,
having someone whom you'll wake up and smile to yourself about.
having someone to give you good morning msges,
having someone that'll wish you the sweetest dreams at night.
having someone to think bout when things get dull.
having someone that you know will make your day worthwhile.
having someone that you'll giggle bout in front of your phone.

i'm pretty sure that i don't miss any of that anymore,
because you're my superwoman.
<3

confessions.

2008-08-26T21:39:00.002+08:00

Dearest,
let these roses,
In their purity,
Be a present symbol,
Of my feelings for thee.
Underneath the blossom,
Thorns are sure to grow.
Take heed lest you touch them,
They would pain you so!
Ahhh! my faults like thorns are,
But cannot they be
Hidden 'neath the flower
Of my feelings for thee.
But forbidden are my feelings for thee,
as i can't let myself fall for you.
Keeping my feelings at bay,
is the only way i could ease the temptations.
sigh.

early tuesday morning!

2008-08-26T00:04:00.005+08:00

hahaha! since you said you readdd my blog. this one is for you babe! you know who you are. =D

you were til i came along. i know. hahahahha

early thursday morning.

2008-08-14T01:51:00.002+08:00

here's the 360's that i believed got me that podium finish.
so here're the pics. :)

early thursday morning

2008-08-14T01:47:00.004+08:00

finally got to meet her today.
ahh.
imissedyousomuch.
there're so many thoughts running through my mind,
that its driving me nuts.
oh well.
i doubt i'll be a priority in her eyes anyway.
so don't count on it konrad...

once upon a time i was falling in love, now i'm only falling apart.
once uopn a time there was light in my life, now there's only love in the dark.
come back baby please.

early sunday morning

2008-08-03T02:32:00.003+08:00

hello guys!
been a week since the box jump comp ended. it was a fucking great success. i actually didn't wanna join, but yeah, darren had put my name in last minute and forced me in. shit. hahaha. and i actually got 2nd. 1st comp, 1st podium finish. fuck yeah. hahahaha. check out the pics.

that huge 180 in the finals.
that huge tuck in the finals, shit it was big but it was taken a lil' late.
my 2 best riding buds! darren & ryan!
#2 & #3, thanks for the encouragement yo!
practicing my 3's at b3.

early saturday morning

2008-07-26T02:30:00.002+08:00

just came back from nuh...
suffering chest pain for 3days...
my heart is like pressing against my ribcage...
doc says my heart swelled up,
but he doesn't have an explanation for it...
fuck..
the fucking painkillers are not working...
and he asked me to stop any physcial activities for a week.
oh man...

it hurts like shit...

early wednesday morning.

2008-07-16T05:20:00.003+08:00

hey...

just finished "alot like love" again.
it just made me miss someone again.
oh my.
talked to her bestie bout her just now.
yeah.
maybe i do miss her.
i lied when i said i won't be coming back.
i lied when i said i gave up on us.
but yeah.
i probably won't have the guts to tell you.
thats why i'm writing this.
i gave so much to you.
and yeah.
i still remember the good times and the bad.
you were the only girl who ever stood by me,
through the tough times and the bad.
the only girl who ever really understood me.
but...
i guess whenever we're together,
i hurt you more,
each time we got closer.
i'm pretty sure you were the only girl that i ever said ilu to.
i still remember that very first date to esplanade
that very first kiss.
and that very first time you said ilu on the phone.
maybe it wasn't love.
maybe it was just alot like love...
i don't know.
you'll probably be reading this.
and you probably know who you are.
i need you.
and i miss you.

early wednesday morning

2008-07-09T02:45:00.003+08:00

oh hello!

ahh. comp's coming. feeling the need to push myself.
i forsee like i will get top 3 because i believe i'm one of the top mtb riders in singapore.
but in someway, my tricks are not getting there yet.
maybe i care too much bout style.
ahhhh.
been landing my 360s all day long but i'm still not happy with it.
i don't know.
wrecking my brain out, been trying all kinda variations.
i can't get my inverts or tables right either.
maybe i push too hard.
ahhh. comp's coming.
its my proving ground.
first comp, kinda psyched, kinda nervous, but at the same time kinda looking forward to it.
maybe john was right,
i shouldn't join a comp just because i wanna win,
the fun with friends is what matters the most.
but come to think of it.
almost all mtb riders are suckers.
so much politics, too lil' fun.
fuck you.
thats why i rather hang out with bmx-ers.
and thats why i bring my bmx style in.
i ride better than most of you,
yet you guys are still being arrogant, ignorant, self-centred bastards.
you should spend your time talking on your riding shitheads.
ahhh. even if i wasn't in all your online rants,
i still feel the need to let you realise how much you guys suck at riding.
come this 27th.
i will do my best.
and the rest shall fall.
try me boys.

ahhh.i so badly wanna win.
and this is my bike. :)
clean,brakeless. its the sex yo.

mid tuesday afternoon

2008-07-08T15:18:00.003+08:00

the take's over, the muthaphuckking break's over!!!

ahhh. couldn't resist. can't get it outta my mind. anyway, yeah, been really irritated over the past week. haha. nvm. means i ride more and progress more. anyway, was out riding street with the guys around batok yest again and then, tada, i saw something i always wanted to try since a i don't know when, a 180 down the unloading bay. hahaha. which is bout. hmmm. i dont know. maybe 6-7steps? ate shit on the first 3 tries but i pulled off the 4th so cleanly. jyeahhh! hahaha. everyone was clapping so yeah, i'm psyched bout it. thanks for pushing me guys.

oh yeah, last friday, i was out with luke pp and his 2 poly friends jiehao and qixiang (birthday boy!), 2 reallyreally nice guys and yeah, damn they've a great sense of humour too. hahaha. and luke pp, please don't feel left out if you're the only non-smoker. hahahahahaha!!! dined at spaggedies, and went to harry's bar after. felt bad that qixiang had to settle all the bill even though its his birthday. but yeah, for the amount of fun we had, it was priceless. thanks for the fun night guys, especially you qixiang.

anyway, yeah. i'm bored everyday, i don't have anything to do, don't have anything to look forward to. life's been really boring. nvm. samantha josephine kay! u better keep your promise. hahahaha. ciao guys. be back soon!

early thursday morning

2008-07-03T07:26:00.001+08:00

why am I always up at like 7am everyday!!! arghhh!!! super irritating. bores the crap outta me man!

early wednesday evening

2008-07-02T17:21:00.002+08:00

heyyy. its been awhile. life's been pretty boring. nothing much to say. hahaha. just download cs 1.6 last week. shit man, been 2-3years since i last played. hahaha. but okay la, still ain't that bad. fun playing with my own friends though.

been awhile since i went out to catch a movie or something. life's been all bout sleeping, waking up, cs-ing, ride, come back and sleep and the cycle continues. jia lat la konrad! how?! hahahahah.

october 16th please come soon.
oh man, come to think of it, i haven't even attended my napfas yet. hahaha. oh well, pull-up isn't one of my worries anymore. 12 isn't a problem, i could pull 17finally. hahahah. shit man, to think i was struggling to do even 6 in sec4. weak la huh. haha.

oh man, think i should go and ride later, but weather's looking pretty bad. yikes! yeap, i shall end my rants here. ciaoooo!

late wednesday morning

2008-06-18T11:05:00.002+08:00

heyyy!

sorry for the lack of blogs recently, lappie went for service bout 2 weeks back. anyway, its been a shitty month for me. been lazing around the house yet again and been reminiscing bout lotsa stuff. been shopping alot lately ever since the gss started and shit, its gonna end soon. and guess what, i finally got my eyebrow pierced like 2 days back, kinda a hasty decision. but no regrets, gotta get inked again soon. desgin be up soon. hahaha. anyway, was drinking at my place with fab, watt and alvin last night cos it was watt's belated b'day, shit yo, too much alcohol! one almost new bottle of absolut mandarin from me, and one new bottle of london dry gin frm watt. all of us ended up getting really intoxicated and they after smoking countless cigs, we ended up walking over to toh guan to get some ba chor mee. hahahaha. it was really hilarious, fab fell into this ditch and he didn't even know til he was lying on the ground. hahahahaha! kudos to you fab! and the rest of us tried our very best to be sober. ahhh. fun night drinking, a shot of booze a day keeps the doctor at bay! haha.

been riding alot recently too. getting my style right. and yeah, been quite hapyp with it so far.

my enlistment date is october 16th!!! tekong here i come.

mid friday evening

2008-06-13T18:37:00.003+08:00

saw someone yesterday.
didn't believed what everyone was telling me,
but yeah,
seeing is believing.
seems like you've moved on pretty well.
glad that you've found a guy that makes you happy,
sorry i wasn't good enough,
and i wish you all the best with him babe!

you should know who you are.
there's always a special place somewhere in my heart for you. :)

late saturday morning.

2008-05-31T09:53:00.002+08:00

my heart sank as i laid eyes on you yesterday evening.
i didn't even had the heart to say a simple goodbye nor a hi.
i choked on my words.
i can't bring myself to talk to you.
i don't know why...
i miss you.

early monday morning.

2008-05-19T06:24:00.003+08:00

sup y'all.

just came from riding the entire day. anyway, i converted back to mountain bike. blk mrkt riot. jyeah. fucking high end, traded my bmx for it. anyway, i landed 360s on my mtb, and shit i finally hope 360s on a bmx. feeling the sense of achievement finally. soooo happpyyy! hahaha.

kay la. going to bed. update when i'm up later. ciao!

early tuesday morning

2008-05-13T05:13:00.001+08:00

weeeeee! clocked in at 145km/h today. damn, it was fun.

feel the need for speeeeeeeeed!

early thursday morning

2008-05-08T03:46:00.002+08:00

hey y'all. haven't logged in awhile. been really busy with work lately.

anyway, just had my first motor accident today. fuck it man. now my left leg is filled with abrasions and my knee is aching. argh.

anyway, yeah, been hanging out recently. nothing much to do. just chilling out with the mountain bike gang at entertainment after work or if si kiat books out i had hang out with him and jiaming instead. pay's in. got lotsa money to spend. but i don't have anything to buy and i don't have the time nor the mood to go out to town too. everyday's bout work,work and work. started my job as a bike mechanic at treknology at holland village for almost 3 weeks. and yeah, its been hectic. bike after bike after bike. oh man. wears me out. just hope that i get enlisted asap. nothing much has happened since my last blog so yeah, i don't really have much to say. life's been really boring. i just hope i had get a new job man.

oh yeah, i'm selling my bmx too. don't have the mood, time nor heart to ride bmx anymore. yeap. thats bout all. ciao.

i miss you.

early friday morning

2008-04-25T04:11:00.002+08:00

hello! i'm kinda high now from the booze and all.

ratboy's going into tekong later at 10am! so the guys and a babe decided to drink the night away. me, sinyee, wattana, jonathan(ratboy) and donglun and kit the only non-drinker of the day with his "i don't drink because i'm a devoted musilm now" shit. hahahahaha. kit ah kit, you know you should give in to temptation.

it was so fun reliving the chill days with the coolest people of b3. how i wish b3 was filled with the people of yester-year. when people didn't think so much of improving but the joy of riding. fuck improving man, i'm pass that stage. it was just pure enjoyment today, alcohol, cigs, laughter and joy. how i miss those days. i miss riding too. anyway, got a new job at treknology as a bike mechanic. gonna report to work with a hangover. at least i have kit to cover for me. haha. shit man, so much alcohol today.haven't got so high in awhile. hahaha. kay la. better get going before i talk anymore shit. ciao guys! =)

early sunday morning

2008-04-06T04:13:00.002+08:00

just got back from celebrating jia ming's birthday. oh well, all of us are more or less broke before it happened, would make it up to you someday man! hope you enjoyed yourself still.

anyway, been riding quite often lately. don't really have much to do. school's gonna start soon for most, and yeah, those that know, yeah. i'm just gonna stone even more. gonna go for an interview at guess on either monday or tuesday. lets pray i get the job, so i can get even more stuff for myself. actually not, i gotta save, get a bloody motor, increase my bank account from the pathetic 2 bucks thats left inside, and probably enjoy life while i still can.

been kinda down lately, i mean yeah, i got kicked out and shit, it only adds to everything that has happened over the past couple of months. 08 has nothing but been a shitty year to begin with. so many things has happened... oh well, what's done's done. i just don't wish to be the person that i've turned into lately... thoughts been running through my mind and shits been messing it up. i've always been the sort that broods over stuff when i'm alone or when i'm feeling fucked. oh well. hope i could step outta the darkness and start looking on the bright side, but shit, there isn't any "bright side" to anything that've happened. argh.

anyway, i'm pretty much looking forward to ns now. gonna get it over and done with. just hope i could get posted to some chiong-sua shit like guards or the air force or naval diving or something. at least i could be better than si kiat, hahahahahahaha!!! armour infantry boy. hahahaha. oh well. come what may, i believe i'm tough enough and i will not chao keng. haha.

and xiang ying, if you're looking at this, i miss you. so many things left unsaid. yeahh. there hasn't been a day that passed that i've thought bout you...

anyway, i've watched romeo and juliet like 7 times in a month. i'm addicted. haha.

anyway, gotta go, gonna work tomorrow. 10bucks per hour for 5, fuck yeah. haha. nights. ciao!

early saturday morning

2008-03-29T07:41:00.001+08:00

just came back from a ride with my new bike. super worn, in a world of pain. fuck. if only i could ride like used to. ahhhhhhhhhhhhh

early tuesday morning

2008-03-25T04:47:00.002+08:00

life's been getting boring. been staying at home more and more often. just don't feel like going out. i've been missing someone so much recently, but i just can't seem to find the words to say to her... its been such awhile since i've had one of those long chats with you. how i miss those times when we were hanging out late or chatting til it was way past bedtime. seems like it was just yesterday that we were still doing all these. come to think of it, its been over months ago. sigh. guess it'll never work out the way i want it to even though i believe my feelings were so true.

anyway, gonna be down at town to ride later at bout 11am with nigel and co. hopefully i'll have the mood to. haven't been riding for a month. kinda lost the interest in it but oh well, i just wanna pass my time. hopefully the weather won't be as shitty as the past few days.

anyway, would like to thank sk for his company throughout the most of last week. he was having his 1 week passing-out break. brought me around on his bike and yeah, thanks for hearing me out man, not forgetting jm too. =) you guys have always been there when i needed someone. anyway, yeah, i guess i don't have much to talk bout anywhere, so yeah, gonna end here. nights.

early tuesday morning

2008-03-18T08:23:00.002+08:00

been sucha shitty week. oh well. applied for rp after getting dismissed, oh well, see how it goes. if it doesn't work out, i'm probably going to cancel my deferment and get enlisted asap. fuck man, how the fuck did i end up like this. my choices for rp
1)new media
2)integrated events management
3)hotel and hospitality management
4)business computing
5)digital media

shit happens, anyway, went to zouk to last tuesday with darren and ryan, was really really fun, we were dancing on the central stage for bout during the last 2 hourse, giselle joined us halfway through. haven't seen her since i left kent ridge. anyway, yeah, i'm having regular moodswings, been so moody ever since dismissal. haven't even told daddy. fuck it man. i'm so screwed.

early friday morning.

2008-03-14T07:46:00.000+08:00

goodbye ngee ann.

early fri morning

2008-03-14T06:19:00.002+08:00

2 and a half hours away from the results.
fucking stressed bout it.
getting kicked out seems so much of a reality now.
sigh.
save me.
please.

early friday morning

2008-03-07T05:55:00.002+08:00

sup y'all.

yet another sleepless night. i'm so sick and tired of insomnia. i'm so lethargic, yet i can't sleep. it has been like these ever since the stupid exams. i sleep at 1am, wake up at 4am, stay awake til 9am, sleep til 11am. and i go out. fuck this man, seriously. argh. this has been causing me to smoke more than usual. argh. it still hasn't become an addiction. just a temporary solution to the mess thats been created inside my mind.

i've been so moody lately, i've been staying home for the past week. i don't feel like riding, neither do i feel like doing anything. i've a new frame, new downhill bike, but i just don't feel like leaving my place. seriously, i want my life back. si kiat's in army, hafiz don't know what he doing, jia ming working. fuck. i hope coming tuesday at zouk would turn out well and i won't stone in there like how i'm stoning at home everyday.

results out in a week from now. i've exactly one week to enjoy which i don't think i would before i face the truth. sigh. i don't even know where i'm going in life anymore. no hopes, no dreams. fuck. i want my life back. argh.

sign,sealed&delivered @ 6.03am

early friday morning

2008-02-29T03:03:00.002+08:00

ahh. woke up with a severe hangover this afternoon. darn. felt like crap. due to the excessive drinking session from the night before at clarke quay. thanks for the drinks james fray! haha.

anyway, had some updates on my bike. guess its gonna be the last few. already got everything that i want on it now besides the seat. so yeah. gonna stop spending and start saving.

been a slow start to the holidays. hadn't really had much fun yet. been stoning at home, either that or going out to ride for a short while. but seriously, the more i ride, i more i'm losing the heart to. don't feel like improving. and i feel as though i'm giving up which is not right.

need to find myself a date for the holidays more often so i can hangout more instead of confining myself in my stupid room. oh well. i still miss her and somehow i miss my ex-gf too. hahaha. i don't know why. don't ask me.

been struck with insomnia lately and i can't sleep. somebody help? please?

going to find something to occupy myself for now. ciao!

signed,sealed & delivered @ 3.08am
hope you like the present that i got for you girl.

mid sunday evening

2008-02-24T18:46:00.002+08:00

the holidays are in bitches!

yeahh! club, ride, alcohol and pure enjoyment for 2months. feels good. hahaha. all i lack now is a girl. =( oh well. don't really have much to say. anyway, i wanna go phuture on wedenesday! but i don't know if the rest are okay bout it, i know kelvin and j-z are definately in. hahaha. oh well. see how it goes. jyeah. haha. kay. blog again later.

early friday morning

2008-02-22T02:24:00.002+08:00

supppp!

been awhile since i updated. ever since the exams started huh.. all the papers been kinda shit so far, whatever that we did in the past year papers, kinda messed up in the final one. fuck.. tomorrow might the last time i ever step into the ngee ann exam hall again. oh man. getting kicked out seem like a reality now. ohwell.

anyway, been down with a fever since last saturday. almost been a week. been feeling so lethargic ever since. i can't sleep properly, keep tossing and turning in my bed. argh. the worse feeling is you're really really tired and yet you can't fall asleep. insomnia suck big time.

oh well, at least tomorrow's my last paper, gonna end the worries and hopefully get some rest for the time being til the results day come.

her birthday's coming up in 3 days, how should i go about doing it... i don't know... i hope you'll like this like how you liked the previous one i gave you. this will be my last goodbye to you babe... but i still hope you'll talk to me one day.

gotta go mug for my last. gonna work hard for it because memorising is my forte.

ciao.

signed,sealed & delivered @ 2.31am

thursday evening.

2008-02-14T18:04:00.002+08:00

new colour la!

early wednesday morning stil.

2008-02-13T04:43:00.000+08:00

early wednesday morning

2008-02-13T04:35:00.000+08:00

sup y'all.

first off, gong xi fa cai. haha.
been another bad start to another new year,
lost 340 in 2 rounds while playing in between,
grrr.
got back on the 3rd and 4th day though.
anyway, got some upgrades to my bike,
and i landed my hop 3's down 3steps 2days back at b.panjang.
yeah balls!
ate shit on the first 2 tries,
but got it dialed after.
so stoked bout it.
had a photoshoot at b3 today.
not bad.
not gonna say much, let the pics do talking.
haha. i look dumb in a few. cheers. hahaha.
and check out my matching pipes yo!

early wednesday morning

2008-02-06T02:09:00.000+08:00

chinese new year eve is here.

been a bad bad start to 08,
nothing's been going well.
so badly,
i wanna speak to you,
but the words just wouldn't escape my mouth.
the pain i feel inside,
of keeping everything to myself.
maybe its better that way.
your pm,
your nick,
i don't know,
maybe i think too much,
maybe i'm right...
yet another day has passed with me constantly thinking bout you,
yet another night has passed with me constantly hoping that your name will appear at the bottom of my screen.
guess it ain't gonna happen.
i always thought,
maybe i meant something to you,
and i guess i'm oh so wrong.
sigh...
nights.

early saturday evening.

2008-02-02T17:43:00.000+08:00

went riding in the morning,
fucked my right ankle.
AGAIN.
was doing my usual 360s,
and pop, i was lying on the floor,
looking at the sky.
fuckkkkkk.
embarrassing.
still hurting quite bad now,
suppose to be out soon to town,
with sikiat and jiaming,
to get some cny stuffs even though i claimed i've gotten all of what i need.
now its time for what i want.
jyeah!
and!
i want my fucking hair back.
shit,
look like some 10year lil' girl.
grrr.
ciao.

early saturday morning

2008-02-02T02:37:00.000+08:00

been really into riding for the past week or so.
trying to keep my mind off some stuffs.
sigh.
i miss you.
anyway,
fuck the weather,
been so unpredictable.
plans got screwed today.
grrr.
gonna sleep now,
so i can wake up early to ride b4 by myself.
don't wish to associate with anyone.
nights.

early friday night

2008-02-01T01:38:00.000+08:00

goes out to that special girl, whom i've cherished and gave my all to.
girl, you know who you are,
and if you're reading this,
i want you to know how much i miss you,
and it has never been the same without those laughters and happy times we once shared.

Let me be the one who calls you
baby all the time,
Surely you can take some comfort
knowing that you're mine.
Just hold me tight,
lay by my side,
and let me be the one who calls you baby all the time.
I found my place in the world,
Could stare at your face
for the rest of my days
Now I can breathe,
turn my insides out
and smother me.
When I'm alone time goes so slow,
I need you here with me,
And how my mistakes
have made your heart break,
Still I need you here with me
So baby I, baby I'm here,
so please, let me the one who calls you baby all the time.

early tuesday morning

2008-01-29T00:47:00.000+08:00

remember the times we once had?
the laughters,
the joy you brought
but everything seems odd now,
we've not been talking much,
you don't show interest,
i seem to try too hard.
yeah,
maybe you right,
when you said that maybe i shouldn't always try so hard to make things better.
maybe i should've never tried to impress you,
maybe i should just leave.
it just goes to show,
that everything i believe in,
will one day go away.
but before i go,
please tell me how you feel.
just this,
its the only favour i will and will ever ask for,
from you.
i don't wanna be kept in the dark anymore.

mid saturday morning.

2008-01-26T15:04:00.000+08:00

sup y'all.

figured that time really passes by fast. exams are round the corner. boringggg. hopefully i'll pass my retained modules, maths is sucha killer. nothing much to say bout this week, except for that i've been missing this girl whom i've been thinking bout everyday. oh well. doubt it'll ever workout. anyway, got a new frame and rear wheel. pics are below, nice right? si kiat's booking out today, gonna chill with him later, gonna make fun of him, yeahhh. don't really have much to say. ciao...

later friday afternoon

2008-01-18T16:10:00.000+08:00

she left without saying goodbye...
i'm sure she's in a better place now...
thanks for everything.
you'll always be remembered.
i love you...

early thursday morning

2008-01-17T01:44:00.000+08:00

been a crappy week, sold off my bmx frame, waiting for my pay to come to get my new one, at least i still got my downhill bike to ride. but i wanna ride my damn bmx. gotta wait another 2 more days before i could borrow ryan's frame which would be temporary.

been feeling pretty shitty since i came back from ipoh, well, i still wanna go back and school commitments are holding me back. no one really seems to understand how i feel bout my grandma besides shan. well, of course she does. been really really moody for the past couple of days. feel like hanging out with my friends, but i'll just sit there and keep hush, so whats the point. i want company, but i don't feel like talking. well, at least she managed to cheer me up the other day, thank you again xiang ying. she never fails to cheer me up huh. haven't met her in awhile, well, she's busy with her projects and stuff.

anyway, gonna go out after class with firdaus, habel and mark. gonna catch american gangster again. oh well, haven't been out in awhile, so yeah, guess it'll be cool, might wanna buy some tees too. fuck, i saw the new macbook air today, looks hot. not bad, 3k flat. might consider. mine's screwing up. hmmm, nothing much to say anymore. so yeah, update soon. ciao.

signed,sealed & delivered at 1.57am
be my valentine would you?
you know who you are girl. =)

early sunday morning

2008-01-13T05:25:00.000+08:00

the sadness unfolds...
feeling depressed after seeing my grandma,
the condition that she has deteoriated into.
i tried so hard to not cry in front of her,
but i couldn't,
i never wanted to say goodbye,
but i didn't have a choice,
say my name one more time,
before i never get to hear you say it again,
i'll keep my promise,
to be back in 2weeks time,
please wait for me til then...
please...
i love you po po...
don't leave without saying goodbye again,
please?.......

early tuesday morning

2008-01-08T01:40:00.000+08:00

ahhh. that dream last night!
woke up feeling dissapointed!
ahhhhhh!
hope i have the same one tonight!

signed,sealed & delivered @ 1.45am.
i prayed that that kiss was real.
be my valentine this year would you? =)

mid sunday afternoon.

2008-01-06T14:17:00.001+08:00

sup y'all!

been kinda lazy to blog recently, but oh well. haha. here i am once again. ah, had sucha a good sleep. haven't had one in a long time. insomnia sucks fo' sho! haha. anyway, its 08. yeahhh. haha. hadn't much resolutions but here goes.

1) i'll save more and won't spend as much as in 07.
2) stay true to one. =)
3) study! (i'm halfway outta poly, grrr.)
4) enjoy life as it is, probably the most important one. yeah! haha.
5) i'll stop messing around if i had you.

yeah. thats about it. hahaha. anyway, went to ride 2days back on friday. shit. been so long since i rode with darren, sebastian, ian and company. ah. hell, they improved. haha. but i believed i've improved since the last time i met em too. haha. but i ate shit on 360s down a set of 3 so many times you won't even believe it. haha. well, no pain, no gain. thats how it goes huh. ah. haven't been pubbing so much anymore. sch's started, gonna be a hectic term, chinese new year, gonna spend lotsa money shopping again. fuck. argh. hahaha. well. somehow, i wished i was with her now, even though i believe the thought's kinda far'fetched. been feeling kinda shit lately, i don't know why too, sometimes i wish i knew how she felt, but sometimes i wish i had never said anything. ahhh. i don't know. maybe i should just continue to keep mum bout my feelings huh. anyway, watched american gangster yesterday, ah, rad shit. you should catch it. hahaha. yeah, my man. haha. yeap, blog again tomorrow in class or something. ciao! =)

signed, sealed & delivered @ 2.31am

early wedenesday morning

2007-12-26T05:09:00.000+08:00

To that someone whom i had held on to for 3years,
It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we have fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think you're gonna change
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting and I ain't happy
Plus theres so many other things
I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it go.
I'm sorry.

early tuesday morning

2007-12-18T04:20:00.000+08:00

sup yo. haha. been a great week. =)

turned 18 on friday, oh well, went to zouk with kelvin, jian zhong, sikiat and jiaming. haha. oh well, had a blast there even though all of us weren't really cool with dancing to house music. grrr. haha. anyway, had my haircut today, oh my, why is it that i always cutting my hair after? went to thin it down. oh well, gonna keep it shaggy again. looks better i guess.

anyway, i'm gonna drop by k.l later on with mum and sis. yup. shopping la! haha. gonna cont christmas shopping. already got a few tops frm a-x and guess. and i got 3 pairs of ck today. that adds to the collection . hahaha. sis told me the gucci belts is retailing at bout 360sgd over there. hmmm, thats bout 80 off retail. might give it a shot, see how it goes. haha. pay day came early. luckily for me! haha.

and i'm gonna change some stuffs on my bike too, rear wheel is getting done up right now, changing my bar, stem and crank probably by week-end. yeap. and the other day, i was talking to habel bout getting a pit-bike, oh, and it seems he's got some good deals off it. yeap! hahaha. i'm getting one for christmas, fuck, oh course i'm paying for it myself. haha. yeahhh. gonna go around riding round the neighbourhood in the middle of the night. carparks and streetswill have a whole new meaning to it!

ahhh. i don't have much more to buy cept a belt, shoes which i had yet to decide on fallen or emerica and my birkenstock slippers which is outta my size. argh. burberry still doesn't have my brown polo too. went to check yest when i was out with syaz. damn! oh well, i already got what i wanted, so yeah man! hahaha. probably dropping by zouk on wednesday again. mambo night biatch! haha

yup. gotta grab some sleep before i wake up in 2 hours time. and oh yes, i'm going out with her on sat. eeeyyyyyeeaaah! =) nights! ciao!

signed,sealed & delivered @ 4.30.am

early thursday morning.

2007-12-13T00:21:00.000+08:00

16hours from my final paper and 24hours from turning 18, i'm just feeling oh so bummed. nothing's been going really well, oh well, not til coming friday i guess. gonna partyyyyy. yeahhh. best thing is all my best-buds gonna be there. yeap. common test been shit by the way, i skipped maths paper on tuesday because i was down with fever, i can't really be bothered to mug. something's been bothering me. yeah, i'm gonna ride more after my birthday to keep my mind off those unhappy thoughts. ahhh. i really need a break from all these! grrr. anyway, si kiat and jia ming forced me to work next week when i'm supposed to be hanging out or something, oh well, gives a shit, gonna skip one day of work at least. been too lazy to work and i don't really need the spare dough anyway.

and oh yeah, been bored and been catching alot of shows recently, heartbreak kid was hilarious, hitman was action packed and city of god, speechless, an explicit in depth show bout thugs and stuff in rio de janerio in brazil.

oh yeah, done my christmas shopping too, 2guess tops, 2 a-x tops, now i'm waiting for a few bottoms, which i'm really picky bout. i've too few but the selection's really limited too. oh well, don't have much left in my bank after my birthday, damn. nvm, pay's coming anyway. upgrading stuffs on my bmx too. ohh. spending season. retail theraphy works.

anyway, gotta go eat my dinner, yeah i know its late, don't really have an appetite, well, just eating for the sake of it. ciao

early monday morning

2007-12-10T01:54:00.001+08:00

there're so many things i wanna say.
but it ain't coming outta my mouth.
its just something i had rather keep to myself,
and not let you know...
why is it that whenever i start to believe in someone,
i'll never fail to lose that person...
love is just a word to me from here on,
neither a feeling,
nor a belief.
truth is,
it hurts,
and i've lose faith in it.
the things you said,
keeps repeating in my mind,
like a record player.
uncontrollably,
it rolled down my cheek,
i just figured something out today,
that you felt the same way at one point of time,
but those mishaps caused you to lose faith in me,
why?
tell me why please?
what have i ever done,
to give you a reason,
to hurt me like that?
there's just so many questions,
but i'm afraid of all the answers...

you were the one i believed in girl, but now, i should just walk away silently...

early saturday morning

2007-12-08T03:47:00.000+08:00

Days felt like months when you were away.
I really hoped things would work out,
after you being there time after time,
after all the happiness and smiles you brought.
I wished that we would never have met,
so that i would've save both of us from this moment.
I thought everything was going so well,
I thought maybe it had work out somehow.
21st november will be always be a day thats special,
that very first time,
that very first date.
so many times,
my hands were close to yours,
but i just didn't have the guts to hold it.
when you walked away,
i count the steps that you take.
and remember the time i said,
the feeling of knowing that someone is there whenever you wake up,
yes,
you gave me that joy.
now that its gone,
all i can do is reminisce bout the past,
and wonder where i've gone wrong.
maybe i just wasn't good enough,
maybe i just wasn't your sort.
i would do anything,
to see that smile of yours again,
the smile that never fail to put one my face,
the smile that caught my eye.
thanks for everything,
and it will end here.

you left me speechless tonight.

late thursday night

2007-11-22T23:42:00.000+08:00

suppp. woooots! i finally got inked yesterday! well well well. hahaha. the pics are below, anyway, was out on a date with someone yesterday, and yeap, it went really well, at least for me. and i really had a great time with her, its a feeling i've not felt in a long while. =) ahhh. she was a lil late at the beginning but oh well. hahaha. yeap, she was there when i got inked, and damn, i'm not gonna lie, it does hurt, especially the last letter D because its right at the hip bone. hahaha. ah, the shading hurt like crap but oh well, it was still manageable, nothing that will make me squirm or scream or whatever. haha. after that we chilled at starbucks and yeah, sent her home after. and yeap, i had a great time, and i hope there'll definately be a next time. hahaha. ahhh. she totally made my day. i'm just so happy. hadn't felt like this in a long while. =)

yeap, she's going overseas tomorrow anyway. so yeah, i'll spend this weekend riding. yeap, hadn't done that in a long while but yeah. looking forward to it. haha. anyway, i'll blog again tomorrow, kinda tired now. ciao!

signed, sealed and delivered @ 11.49pm
there's something about you, that caught my eye like no other.

early saturday morning.

2007-11-17T05:00:00.000+08:00

ahhh. suppp.

today i learned a very important lesson in bmx, a high speed 180 7step gap will result in my neck hurting, a sprained left wrist, an oh so heavy left arm and multiple abrasions. but i still walked away with pride. =) go big or go home biatch! though it hurts like fuck, but oh well, crashing is part and parcel of learning. i had the guts to try it, walked away bummed, and still, i wanna do it again when i'm better. going to bed now. hope she replies.

lets see how i feel when i wake up! ciao!

signed,sealed & delivered @ 5.05am

late friday morning.

2007-11-16T10:08:00.000+08:00

heyo.

been an alright week i guess. although something shitty happened last saturday, oh well. it will be the last time i ever go out with her. fuck. got slapped for nothing. argh. it never pay to be the nice guy huh. anyway, thank you xy for cheering me up yeah. =) ahhh. for the past 3 days, i've been sleeping for only 3 and a half hours everyday. and i'm feeling so bummed now. skipped work and went to ride last night, kinda fucked my left ankle again. oh well, its always giving me problems. and i think i'm going down town to ride tonight.

anyway, recently, there's been someone that has been really nice. i don't really know how you feel, but yeah. =) had a great chat with you on wednesday, hadn't talked to anyone for 4hours for sucha long time! haha. but yeah, you should get how i feel. and yeah, i'm pretty stoked bout next wednesday.

anyway, gotta get my tattoo done this coming wednesday, like finally. eeeyyyyeaaahhh! gotta go for now, blog again soon.

sign,sealed & delivered @ 10.17am

early thursday morning.

2007-11-08T04:45:00.000+08:00

yeah. its the deepavali holidays.

just got home from work. been a really fucked up day... besides the booze i downed unreluctantly, there were just so many shit going on. i downed bout 6 small sized bottles of champange. it was good. and yeah... after i was talking to someone. and yeah, i'm pretty sure i made a helload of sense towards what i was saying to her and she kept denying the obvious truth... please. i know you well enough.. denial would not make u an overnight heroine nor will it make you a good drinker... i was worried, i cared, i opened up to you, i had a heart to heart talk with you, but you just kept denying and denying. fuck it, whats up with not being good at it? it wouldn't make you a loser. i was the one cleaning up all the shit after your sessions. and just a sorry and a hug wouldn't make it any better. sorry, i'm an ass, i know but yeah, talking to you was sooooooo fucked up, you were so lucky i kept it within. anger that is... ahhh. why does it always backfire when i actually really care bout someone? its fucking jinx.. i fine myself once again feeling so fucked. i was like so tipsy halfway through work that i slept on the empty wine boxes for half an hour before continuing. my head is feeling so bummed now. ahh. its better if i went to bed...

and to xiang ying who i confided in... thank you... and yeah... it wasn't how i wanted it to be but at least you replied... and yeah. maybe it just isn't a good time to talk because i'm feeling really shit after the booze and all. sorry. nights then

signed, sealed & delivered @ 4.55am.

early monday afternoon.

2007-11-05T13:09:00.000+08:00

STOP IT bout the rowena thing xiang ying!!!!! hahahaha

there's someone else. haha. =)

early monday morning

2007-11-05T00:47:00.000+08:00

suuuuupppp.

haha. ahhh. been a wonderful week, went pubbing twice this week and i spent a hell load of money, but oh well, there's a price to everything. hahaha. i went pubbing on wednesday with kelvin and rowena. it was alright la, didn't drink much, just a few bottles, but rowena had one and she was down! hahaha. com'on buddy. u gotta improveeeeee!

saturday booze was with shanker and rowena. went to meet rowena for dinner at fish & co., ahh. then we were like hanging out waiting for shanker. yeah, well, the 3of us cliqued really well. surprise surprise. yeah. we went back to barracks to have a bucket of asahi. haha. rowena was high after. oooops. hahaha. worse still, we had bourbon coke after, 2 glasses, that made it worse for her. hahaha. everyone that worked last night now know who's the better drinker rowena. hahaha. then after she was high and all and we decided to walk to taka where they were having that subaru impreza challenge, i had an amsterdam, and they had a tall can of carlsberg. ahhh. that was when the kick started kicking in. hahaha. maybe i drank a tad too fast and yeah half way through my head started to spin, but oh well, i still really enjoyed myself, didnt do anything stupid but yeah. hahaha. after that i brought rowena back again. oh well, a girl's safety is important! so yeah, i did and she got knocked out in the cab. hahaha. after sending her back, shanker and i continued drinking at a coffee shop. ahh. i was really bummed after, we stayed long enough for the first train, parted ways there, and i slept all the way from yio chu kang to jurong east. no interruptions, train driver had to wake me up. damn. hahaha. when i got home, i was feeling super bummed and i just changed and went to bed straight since i figured i was still really clean and stuff. hahah. slept til 5 and went to work and shanker and i were like talking bout what happened. hahaha. rowena, we all know your dirty little secret. hahaha.

well, it was really a great week, hadn't had so much fun in sucha long time, i really cherish friends and times like that these. ahh. they're gonna do it coming sat again. haha. i'll probably be down for it, and i'm gonna be rich bitch, pay's coming in. 2 pay cheques. yeahhh. hahaha. there's only a few things left to buy, a new belt, a psp and probably expanding my wardrobe. haha. i got my i touch already. weeee. hahahaha. anyway, i gotta go before my net fucks up on me again. nights! blog tmr in class.

late monday morning

2007-10-29T10:54:00.000+08:00

sup y'all.

currently in class now. feeling so f-ing tired now. suppose to in classby 10, i got in at 1030, been riding for the last 3days, going to somerset park to ride for 2 days and b3 on the other. ahhh. my ankle and wrist are at the end of the daily bashing and crashing. oh well, at least its fun.

anyway, i've still been feeling quite shit as of late... i need someone to talk to, but sometimes i had rather keep it within myself. i don't know why. i don't know whats wrong with me these days but something important has been missing in my life. Maybe i just need time to adapt... oh well... i'm off, byeee.

sign, sealed & delivered @ 11.01am

early thursday morning

2007-10-25T00:38:00.000+08:00

weee. sup y'all.

been feeling better after i let it all out. anyway, went back to ride on sunday and tuesday. oh man, how i missed it. the feeling of crashing, the feeling of landing a trick, the feeling of being free from everything, the feeling just seems perpetual. maybe i should ride more. ahhh.

anyway, i've been doing some dumb things to my bike, making it ever more colourful. haha. yeah, pics be up tmr, paint's drying up now as i type.

been having some serious soul searching lately and i believe that eventually, everything will just settle down. i just thought it was better for us. and i hoped you understand.

well, school's been shit as usual, trying to find time between work and school to ride. oh well, i hope to improve before year end. well. gotta go again. ciao!

signed, sealed & delievered @ 12.52am.

early saturday morning

2007-10-20T01:51:00.000+08:00

life's been pretty shit recently. there's so many things on my mind and i wished i could run away from all these and leave it behind. i tried so hard everyday, but it never seemed to work. thanks for all those who've been there, i really appreciate it. i really don't know what to do... i'm losing my mind.

i wished that i could say i still love you like i do yesterday... i keep thinking of the good memories and try to stay away from the bad ones. surely and silently, i'm breaking down and tears have fallen... i just want you to give me something to believe in, something that would direct me away from the negative thoughts, something that would keep me away from wanting to leave... i can't continue on like these anymore... i love you but i'm sorry... things just hasn't been working out for the past few months, i've tried my very best... but it just feels like a slap in the face each time because i fail to cheer you up. i know i shouldn't give up because i've never did for the past 3 years... but i'm really tired... of being the one thats trying with all his heart and soul to cheer you up everyday, of being the one whom keeps getting hurt and being the one whom always gives in.

all i ask for is for you to be who you once were. the girl i so deeply loved, the girl i was so crazy for...

i love you shan pheng. i really do.

but...

i'm sorry that i've been such a big failure.

mid monday morning

2007-10-15T10:39:00.001+08:00

hello everyone! good morning!

ahh. haven't been blogging for so long, anyway, i went shopping already, got a new crumpler complete seed, 2 jeans, 2 tops, davidoff edt and a pair of slippers. weee. hehe. anyway! ahh, been working for the past weeks til late so i didn't have the time to blog, and damn, i'm waiting for my pay to come. gotta pay for my new wheels man. haha. ah, i bought a mtb too, pics gonna be up soon.

i don't really have much to say except that school is starting, aiyo. and i'm still working on weekdays, i haven't even got time to ride my bike, and i've been missing my girlfriend so much. ahhh. baby! meet me soon okay? =)

anyway, gotta go off. blog again tomorrow or something during class! ciao!

signed, sealed & delivered @ 10.45am.

early thursday morning

2007-09-27T03:26:00.000+08:00

sup y'all.

ahhh. i'm so bored. i don't ride much nowadays, i don't really go out often, oh my, life is becoming dull. fuck probation seriously, because of it, my life is screwing up because i can't do the usual things that i like doing. anyway, got a job down at barracks, which is this restaurant at dempsey road, across botanic gardens, ah, pay's good. 7bucks per hour and its almost 14hours a day and 6 day a week, niceee. my new bike is gonna come sooner or later, i got so much stuffs to buy, itouch, a new nano, shuffle, new jeans and i fucking need a new pair of kicks. ahhh. so little money but yet so much stuffs to buy. timetable is shit for next sem too. even though it starts lateat 10 bout everyday, it ends bout 4. i had rather start early and end early. argh. the 2 retained modules are sucha pain in the ass. gotta take my maths with freshies too.

i so wanna ride nowadays, but i've lost that motivaton that kick started my bmx life 6months ago. i can't be bothered to learn my 360s. i just don't feel the want to push myself anymore. ahhh. i don't know whats happening. school's starting in bout 2 weeks time, and i wished that i was in another course, oh well, its too late to turn back now, its already year 2 and a half. i don't wanna drop out out now and waste my 2 years here.

oh well, i went with si kiat and jia ming yesterday. and it just hit me when i was on my way home, i really miss those times that we were the best of friends, when we fucked around in and outside of school and get nabbed together. those were the days man. ah, maybe i should hang out with them more.

anyway, baby's feeling sick i guess, should've met her today and made her feel better. i'm sorry i didn't baby. i find myseld wanting her more and more nowadays, i don't know why, maybe its because i've been thinking too much bout life. oh well, she's the only good thing that has happened to me the whole of this year.

and yeah, i'm gonna re-do my fork colour tomorrow to either raw or black, not sure if i wanna redo my frame colour too. i just suddenly feel that i want a black bike, something that's really dull, looks better too i guess. gonna wake up early too. ahhh. i'm so damn bored. maybe i'll go and play my ps2 or watch tv for awhile. ciao!

sign, sealed and delivered @ 3.39am

early monday evening

2007-09-17T18:18:00.000+08:00

sup y'all.

ahh. baby's away at her chalet and i'm sitting here dying of boredom and i' m definately missing her. anyway, my probation starts today, starts at 11pm but there's a catch, i canstay out if there's parents consent. hahaha! suck on this jiaming. my curfew owns yours. hahaha. anyway, i've some upgrades on my bike! wawaweewa. very pimped. look at the pictures below! haha. gotta go ride! i miss you darling! =(

mid wednesday afternoon

2007-09-12T15:33:00.000+08:00

sup y'all.

the past few days hadn't been good i guess. i met baby on monday, went around looking for stuffs and i finally bought my superman belt. she wasn't into talking that much that day and i don't know why, i tried cheering her up but it didn't seem to work. sigh, do you really have be that unhappy to actually hurt the person that has been trying to cheer you up the entire day? i tried so hard, and i asked for was for you to cheer up, not be at the back end of your wrath...

been crashing alot on my 360s the past few days too. knee don't feel very good. didn't ride yesterday, went to drink. didn't have the mood to too. sorry guys.

being a nice guy doesn't always pay... i tried, but you didn't seem to helping out... and it felt like a slap in the face.

byeee.

2007-09-08T07:32:00.000+08:00

i was kinda bored and i kept listening to the soundtrack and this was something i did! and yeah, i know my photoshop skills suck, but i had a hard time mixing and matching and drawing! and now you know my chinese name. =)

early saturday morning.

2007-09-08T03:17:00.000+08:00

Hello! hahaha. my girlfriend made me do this. =(

1. (the person who tagged you is) - shan pheng
2. (your relationship with him/her is) - my girlfriend
3. (5 impressions you have of him/her) - looks like a malay, really loving, she needs me, noisy(don't kill me for saying this baby! hahaha), short!
4. (the most memorable thing he/she has done for you) - that very first kiss!
5. (the most memorable words he/she has said to you) - "i don't know how to say it, but yeah." which was her way of saying i do! hahaha.
6. (if he/she becomes your lover, you will) - she already is.
7. (if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be) - not poking me.
8. (if he/she becomes your enemy, you will) - box her if she pisses me off. hahaha
9. (if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be) - break-up? lovers or enemies. its either one.
10. (the most desirable thing you want to do for him/her now is) - in her embrace.
11. (your overall impression of him/her is) - she's my superwoman!
12. (how you think people around you will feel about you) - i'm a butch.
13. (the characteristic you hate about yourself is) - i trust people too easily.
14. (the most ideal person you want to be is) - my mum! =)
15. (for people that care and like you, say something to them) - thanks for everything guys!
16. (pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you)
1. SHAN PHENG
2. SI KIAT
3. JIA MING
4. SHERMAIN
5. LUKE
6. HAFIZ
7. SYAZ
8. MUNZIR
9. SIN YEE
10. WATTANA
(who is no.6 having a relationship with?) - atiqah.
(Is no.9 a male or female?) - male
(If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?) -Hell no. he isn't half the man she needs.
(What is no.2 studying?) - SIM Diploma in Management
(When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?) - teacher's day
(What kind of music does no.8 like?) - blink 182!
(Does no.1 has any siblings?) - 3sisters!
(Will you woo no.3?) - fuck no, i'm straight.
(How about no.7?) - we used to be together.
(Is no.4 single?) - yepp
(What’s the surname of no.5?) - pinnefather
(What’s the hobby of no.4?) - going to cafe del mar!
(Do no.5 and 9 get along well?) - er, acquitance.
(Say something casual about no.1) - she's mine.
(Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?) - fuck no, i'm straight.
(Where does no.9 live?) -bukit gombak
(What colour does no.4 like?) - black and red
(Are no.5 and 1 best friends?) - no, normal friends. haha
(Does no.7 like no.2?) - they have not met.
(How did you get to know no.2?) - secondary school, sitting partner.
(Does no.1 have any pets?) - am i considered one?
(Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?) - no! but she thinks she is. hahaha.

early tuesday morning

2007-09-04T04:39:00.000+08:00

sup yo! haha.

ah, I'm having abnormal sleeping hours. which keeps me awake til day break. argh. anyway, i met baby on sunday. haha. i had a fantastic time with her. oh well, i hadn't seen her in more than a week, both of us been busy and everything. haha. anyway, i found out that she was super against her boyfriend wearing coloured skinnys! hahaha! had a great time with her.

anyway, practically everyone that usually rides at b3 went to kl to ride. its gonna be boring the whole week again, b3 will be deserted and shit. but oh well, at least i have more room and time to practice new stuff. anyway, i tried 540s the other day. ah. not even close. hahaha. but, i could finally 360 the box jump at b4. yeah balls. haha. gotta ride harder.

sign,sealed & delivered @ 4.44am.

results are coming out in 2 week, fuck it. lets just pray i fail only 2. gotta go! ciao!