later friday afternoon

she left without saying goodbye...
i'm sure she's in a better place now...
thanks for everything.
you'll always be remembered.
i love you...

early thursday morning

been a crappy week, sold off my bmx frame, waiting for my pay to come to get my new one, at least i still got my downhill bike to ride. but i wanna ride my damn bmx. gotta wait another 2 more days before i could borrow ryan's frame which would be temporary.

been feeling pretty shitty since i came back from ipoh, well, i still wanna go back and school commitments are holding me back. no one really seems to understand how i feel bout my grandma besides shan. well, of course she does. been really really moody for the past couple of days. feel like hanging out with my friends, but i'll just sit there and keep hush, so whats the point. i want company, but i don't feel like talking. well, at least she managed to cheer me up the other day, thank you again xiang ying. she never fails to cheer me up huh. haven't met her in awhile, well, she's busy with her projects and stuff.

anyway, gonna go out after class with firdaus, habel and mark. gonna catch american gangster again. oh well, haven't been out in awhile, so yeah, guess it'll be cool, might wanna buy some tees too. fuck, i saw the new macbook air today, looks hot. not bad, 3k flat. might consider. mine's screwing up. hmmm, nothing much to say anymore. so yeah, update soon. ciao.

signed,sealed & delivered at 1.57am
be my valentine would you?
you know who you are girl. =)

early sunday morning

the sadness unfolds...
feeling depressed after seeing my grandma,
the condition that she has deteoriated into.
i tried so hard to not cry in front of her,
but i couldn't,
i never wanted to say goodbye,
but i didn't have a choice,
say my name one more time,
before i never get to hear you say it again,
i'll keep my promise,
to be back in 2weeks time,
please wait for me til then...
please...
i love you po po...
don't leave without saying goodbye again,
please?.......

early tuesday morning

ahhh. that dream last night!
woke up feeling dissapointed!
ahhhhhh!
hope i have the same one tonight!

signed,sealed & delivered @ 1.45am.
i prayed that that kiss was real.
be my valentine this year would you? =)

mid sunday afternoon.

sup y'all!

been kinda lazy to blog recently, but oh well. haha. here i am once again. ah, had sucha a good sleep. haven't had one in a long time. insomnia sucks fo' sho! haha. anyway, its 08. yeahhh. haha. hadn't much resolutions but here goes.

1) i'll save more and won't spend as much as in 07.
2) stay true to one. =)
3) study! (i'm halfway outta poly, grrr.)
4) enjoy life as it is, probably the most important one. yeah! haha.
5) i'll stop messing around if i had you.

yeah. thats about it. hahaha. anyway, went to ride 2days back on friday. shit. been so long since i rode with darren, sebastian, ian and company. ah. hell, they improved. haha. but i believed i've improved since the last time i met em too. haha. but i ate shit on 360s down a set of 3 so many times you won't even believe it. haha. well, no pain, no gain. thats how it goes huh. ah. haven't been pubbing so much anymore. sch's started, gonna be a hectic term, chinese new year, gonna spend lotsa money shopping again. fuck. argh. hahaha. well. somehow, i wished i was with her now, even though i believe the thought's kinda far'fetched. been feeling kinda shit lately, i don't know why too, sometimes i wish i knew how she felt, but sometimes i wish i had never said anything. ahhh. i don't know. maybe i should just continue to keep mum bout my feelings huh. anyway, watched american gangster yesterday, ah, rad shit. you should catch it. hahaha. yeah, my man. haha. yeap, blog again tomorrow in class or something. ciao! =)

signed, sealed & delivered @ 2.31am

early wedenesday morning

To that someone whom i had held on to for 3years,
It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we have fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think you're gonna change
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting and I ain't happy
Plus theres so many other things
I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it go.
I'm sorry.

early tuesday morning

sup yo. haha. been a great week. =)

turned 18 on friday, oh well, went to zouk with kelvin, jian zhong, sikiat and jiaming. haha. oh well, had a blast there even though all of us weren't really cool with dancing to house music. grrr. haha. anyway, had my haircut today, oh my, why is it that i always cutting my hair after? went to thin it down. oh well, gonna keep it shaggy again. looks better i guess.

anyway, i'm gonna drop by k.l later on with mum and sis. yup. shopping la! haha. gonna cont christmas shopping. already got a few tops frm a-x and guess. and i got 3 pairs of ck today. that adds to the collection . hahaha. sis told me the gucci belts is retailing at bout 360sgd over there. hmmm, thats bout 80 off retail. might give it a shot, see how it goes. haha. pay day came early. luckily for me! haha.

and i'm gonna change some stuffs on my bike too, rear wheel is getting done up right now, changing my bar, stem and crank probably by week-end. yeap. and the other day, i was talking to habel bout getting a pit-bike, oh, and it seems he's got some good deals off it. yeap! hahaha. i'm getting one for christmas, fuck, oh course i'm paying for it myself. haha. yeahhh. gonna go around riding round the neighbourhood in the middle of the night. carparks and streetswill have a whole new meaning to it!

ahhh. i don't have much more to buy cept a belt, shoes which i had yet to decide on fallen or emerica and my birkenstock slippers which is outta my size. argh. burberry still doesn't have my brown polo too. went to check yest when i was out with syaz. damn! oh well, i already got what i wanted, so yeah man! hahaha. probably dropping by zouk on wednesday again. mambo night biatch! haha

yup. gotta grab some sleep before i wake up in 2 hours time. and oh yes, i'm going out with her on sat. eeeyyyyyeeaaah! =) nights! ciao!

signed,sealed & delivered @ 4.30.am