early tuesday morning

ahhh. that dream last night!
woke up feeling dissapointed!
ahhhhhh!
hope i have the same one tonight!

signed,sealed & delivered @ 1.45am.
i prayed that that kiss was real.
be my valentine this year would you? =)

mid sunday afternoon.

sup y'all!

been kinda lazy to blog recently, but oh well. haha. here i am once again. ah, had sucha a good sleep. haven't had one in a long time. insomnia sucks fo' sho! haha. anyway, its 08. yeahhh. haha. hadn't much resolutions but here goes.

1) i'll save more and won't spend as much as in 07.
2) stay true to one. =)
3) study! (i'm halfway outta poly, grrr.)
4) enjoy life as it is, probably the most important one. yeah! haha.
5) i'll stop messing around if i had you.

yeah. thats about it. hahaha. anyway, went to ride 2days back on friday. shit. been so long since i rode with darren, sebastian, ian and company. ah. hell, they improved. haha. but i believed i've improved since the last time i met em too. haha. but i ate shit on 360s down a set of 3 so many times you won't even believe it. haha. well, no pain, no gain. thats how it goes huh. ah. haven't been pubbing so much anymore. sch's started, gonna be a hectic term, chinese new year, gonna spend lotsa money shopping again. fuck. argh. hahaha. well. somehow, i wished i was with her now, even though i believe the thought's kinda far'fetched. been feeling kinda shit lately, i don't know why too, sometimes i wish i knew how she felt, but sometimes i wish i had never said anything. ahhh. i don't know. maybe i should just continue to keep mum bout my feelings huh. anyway, watched american gangster yesterday, ah, rad shit. you should catch it. hahaha. yeah, my man. haha. yeap, blog again tomorrow in class or something. ciao! =)

signed, sealed & delivered @ 2.31am

early wedenesday morning

To that someone whom i had held on to for 3years,
It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we have fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think you're gonna change
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting and I ain't happy
Plus theres so many other things
I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it go.
I'm sorry.

early tuesday morning

sup yo. haha. been a great week. =)

turned 18 on friday, oh well, went to zouk with kelvin, jian zhong, sikiat and jiaming. haha. oh well, had a blast there even though all of us weren't really cool with dancing to house music. grrr. haha. anyway, had my haircut today, oh my, why is it that i always cutting my hair after? went to thin it down. oh well, gonna keep it shaggy again. looks better i guess.

anyway, i'm gonna drop by k.l later on with mum and sis. yup. shopping la! haha. gonna cont christmas shopping. already got a few tops frm a-x and guess. and i got 3 pairs of ck today. that adds to the collection . hahaha. sis told me the gucci belts is retailing at bout 360sgd over there. hmmm, thats bout 80 off retail. might give it a shot, see how it goes. haha. pay day came early. luckily for me! haha.

and i'm gonna change some stuffs on my bike too, rear wheel is getting done up right now, changing my bar, stem and crank probably by week-end. yeap. and the other day, i was talking to habel bout getting a pit-bike, oh, and it seems he's got some good deals off it. yeap! hahaha. i'm getting one for christmas, fuck, oh course i'm paying for it myself. haha. yeahhh. gonna go around riding round the neighbourhood in the middle of the night. carparks and streetswill have a whole new meaning to it!

ahhh. i don't have much more to buy cept a belt, shoes which i had yet to decide on fallen or emerica and my birkenstock slippers which is outta my size. argh. burberry still doesn't have my brown polo too. went to check yest when i was out with syaz. damn! oh well, i already got what i wanted, so yeah man! hahaha. probably dropping by zouk on wednesday again. mambo night biatch! haha

yup. gotta grab some sleep before i wake up in 2 hours time. and oh yes, i'm going out with her on sat. eeeyyyyyeeaaah! =) nights! ciao!

signed,sealed & delivered @ 4.30.am

early thursday morning.

16hours from my final paper and 24hours from turning 18, i'm just feeling oh so bummed. nothing's been going really well, oh well, not til coming friday i guess. gonna partyyyyy. yeahhh. best thing is all my best-buds gonna be there. yeap. common test been shit by the way, i skipped maths paper on tuesday because i was down with fever, i can't really be bothered to mug. something's been bothering me. yeah, i'm gonna ride more after my birthday to keep my mind off those unhappy thoughts. ahhh. i really need a break from all these! grrr. anyway, si kiat and jia ming forced me to work next week when i'm supposed to be hanging out or something, oh well, gives a shit, gonna skip one day of work at least. been too lazy to work and i don't really need the spare dough anyway.

and oh yeah, been bored and been catching alot of shows recently, heartbreak kid was hilarious, hitman was action packed and city of god, speechless, an explicit in depth show bout thugs and stuff in rio de janerio in brazil.

oh yeah, done my christmas shopping too, 2guess tops, 2 a-x tops, now i'm waiting for a few bottoms, which i'm really picky bout. i've too few but the selection's really limited too. oh well, don't have much left in my bank after my birthday, damn. nvm, pay's coming anyway. upgrading stuffs on my bmx too. ohh. spending season. retail theraphy works.

anyway, gotta go eat my dinner, yeah i know its late, don't really have an appetite, well, just eating for the sake of it. ciao

early monday morning

there're so many things i wanna say.
but it ain't coming outta my mouth.
its just something i had rather keep to myself,
and not let you know...
why is it that whenever i start to believe in someone,
i'll never fail to lose that person...
love is just a word to me from here on,
neither a feeling,
nor a belief.
truth is,
it hurts,
and i've lose faith in it.
the things you said,
keeps repeating in my mind,
like a record player.
uncontrollably,
it rolled down my cheek,
i just figured something out today,
that you felt the same way at one point of time,
but those mishaps caused you to lose faith in me,
why?
tell me why please?
what have i ever done,
to give you a reason,
to hurt me like that?
there's just so many questions,
but i'm afraid of all the answers...

you were the one i believed in girl, but now, i should just walk away silently...

early saturday morning

Days felt like months when you were away.
I really hoped things would work out,
after you being there time after time,
after all the happiness and smiles you brought.
I wished that we would never have met,
so that i would've save both of us from this moment.
I thought everything was going so well,
I thought maybe it had work out somehow.
21st november will be always be a day thats special,
that very first time,
that very first date.
so many times,
my hands were close to yours,
but i just didn't have the guts to hold it.
when you walked away,
i count the steps that you take.
and remember the time i said,
the feeling of knowing that someone is there whenever you wake up,
yes,
you gave me that joy.
now that its gone,
all i can do is reminisce bout the past,
and wonder where i've gone wrong.
maybe i just wasn't good enough,
maybe i just wasn't your sort.
i would do anything,
to see that smile of yours again,
the smile that never fail to put one my face,
the smile that caught my eye.
thanks for everything,
and it will end here.

you left me speechless tonight.