early wednesday morning

chinese new year eve is here.

been a bad bad start to 08,
nothing's been going well.
so badly,
i wanna speak to you,
but the words just wouldn't escape my mouth.
the pain i feel inside,
of keeping everything to myself.
maybe its better that way.
your pm,
your nick,
i don't know,
maybe i think too much,
maybe i'm right...
yet another day has passed with me constantly thinking bout you,
yet another night has passed with me constantly hoping that your name will appear at the bottom of my screen.
guess it ain't gonna happen.
i always thought,
maybe i meant something to you,
and i guess i'm oh so wrong.
sigh...
nights.