early friday morning.

hello everyone.

ahh. can't really fall asleep. was kinda going through all the msges that superwoman had sent me over the past 13days. oh, guess what hun, today is 14th day. and i very dearly remember this.

hahaha. well. you didn't expect me to save that right. but so happened i did. haha. oh guess what, she just made me smile again by texting me randomly in the middle of her sleep. hahaha. oh man. have this girl blown me away. no wonder she's my superwoman. anyway, last night was a disaster trying to fall asleep. she'll probably know what happened, shan't say it out. i should be in bed now. but, once again, i find myself thinking bout her. she gives me something to smile bout before i sleep, and after i open my eyes everyday without fail. awwww. she's the best thing that has happened to me in years... ahh. <3.>

trust me, i wouldn't ruin it babe. <3

=)

she's pretty, i'm not.
she likes this, but i think i look funny.
i like this but you can't see the pretty one.

to that one special girl.

i wish the night never ended.
i wish to turn back time.
i wish you never said what you said.
i wish that i've not fallen so deep.
i wish that i never have to feel like this again.
i wish everything would've turned out the way i wanted it to.
i wish i said what i wanted to say.

it happened six months ago.
it's happening now.
why do you have to be like this konrad...
why ain't you good enough...
why does this always happen to me...
why do i always lose someone when i've started to give my everything...

deep down.
i wish i said i'll give you my all.
i wish i said i'll mend all the pieces of your broken heart.
i wish i said don't worry, everything's gonna be fine.
i wish i said i'll eliminate all your insecurities.
i wish i said you're the best thing that has happened to me in a long time.
i wish i said i <3 you.

yes ade. i've fallen for you.
and i love you.
you know i speak of nothing but the truth.
and now.
with all my heart.
i'll tell you that.
everything's gonna be alright.
and i'll walk you through it all.
the good and the bad.
so,
i wish that you'll....................................................

early tuesday morning.

heya.
i'm actually having really big contemplations on the frame i should be getting.
somehow i wished to get a transition double, and continue riding bmx.
or get a ns capital or usb molly.
shit man. i wished i would get sponsored by some mtb company in singapore so i wouldn't need to contemplate so much on frames.

ahhh. enlistment is 38days away. i wished i had more time now. i was looking forward to it. til i met this special girl. this girl literally blew me away like no one else ever did. i never expected myself to actually feel this way bout things. time is super limited. i only wished i had more time to get to know her better. but sigh. i don't know. i'm actually really worried bout how things would work out. i kinda regretted not holding her hand on the walk home. i blew my chance. ahhh. oh fuck. maybe you just think too much konrad... well... everyday, i'm falling deeper and hoping that this would somehow work out well. i really don't wanna lose someone else that i care so much for. but, you just make me feel that everything's gonna be okay. before i met you, my life was in pieces. whole year has been shit, and i thought ns would occupy me enough to actually help me forget my troubles. but then you came along. and everything just seemed so... right. i've never been happier the entire year. i wished i could tell you that i wanna be your guy, but somehow i just don't feel good enough either... a part of me has been lost over the past few years. and thats confidence. slowly but surely, i hope to gain it back. nevertheless, there'll always be a special place for you in my heart.

tell me, that you want me as much as i want you to be a part of my life.
and i'll give you my all.
i promise.
i meant it when i said i'm going head over heels for you.
and baby, you're that special girl.
<3.

superwoman.

I don’t know how to say I wanna be with you,
I don’t know how to start,
But as each day goes by I wish you would open your heart.
Sometimes I wish I could dream forever,
Then that way we’ll always be together.
Unfortunately though, I wake up,
And I hate how reality always seems to suck.
At home it’ll be just another day,
Another day that I’ll try to suppress my feelings for you away.

late sunday morning

so fucking disapponted i got knocked out last night at double o.
oh man.
its the first,
and i hope the last time it ever happens.
i was having so much fun yo.
but at least i remembered everything that happened.
the memories will always be there.=)
and if it was one person whom i needed last night,
it was my superwoman.
i really really didn't mean for it to happen babe.
i'm sorry girl.