early thursday morning.

16hours from my final paper and 24hours from turning 18, i'm just feeling oh so bummed. nothing's been going really well, oh well, not til coming friday i guess. gonna partyyyyy. yeahhh. best thing is all my best-buds gonna be there. yeap. common test been shit by the way, i skipped maths paper on tuesday because i was down with fever, i can't really be bothered to mug. something's been bothering me. yeah, i'm gonna ride more after my birthday to keep my mind off those unhappy thoughts. ahhh. i really need a break from all these! grrr. anyway, si kiat and jia ming forced me to work next week when i'm supposed to be hanging out or something, oh well, gives a shit, gonna skip one day of work at least. been too lazy to work and i don't really need the spare dough anyway.

and oh yeah, been bored and been catching alot of shows recently, heartbreak kid was hilarious, hitman was action packed and city of god, speechless, an explicit in depth show bout thugs and stuff in rio de janerio in brazil.

oh yeah, done my christmas shopping too, 2guess tops, 2 a-x tops, now i'm waiting for a few bottoms, which i'm really picky bout. i've too few but the selection's really limited too. oh well, don't have much left in my bank after my birthday, damn. nvm, pay's coming anyway. upgrading stuffs on my bmx too. ohh. spending season. retail theraphy works.

anyway, gotta go eat my dinner, yeah i know its late, don't really have an appetite, well, just eating for the sake of it. ciao

early monday morning

there're so many things i wanna say.
but it ain't coming outta my mouth.
its just something i had rather keep to myself,
and not let you know...
why is it that whenever i start to believe in someone,
i'll never fail to lose that person...
love is just a word to me from here on,
neither a feeling,
nor a belief.
truth is,
it hurts,
and i've lose faith in it.
the things you said,
keeps repeating in my mind,
like a record player.
uncontrollably,
it rolled down my cheek,
i just figured something out today,
that you felt the same way at one point of time,
but those mishaps caused you to lose faith in me,
why?
tell me why please?
what have i ever done,
to give you a reason,
to hurt me like that?
there's just so many questions,
but i'm afraid of all the answers...

you were the one i believed in girl, but now, i should just walk away silently...