early friday morning

sup y'all.

yet another sleepless night. i'm so sick and tired of insomnia. i'm so lethargic, yet i can't sleep. it has been like these ever since the stupid exams. i sleep at 1am, wake up at 4am, stay awake til 9am, sleep til 11am. and i go out. fuck this man, seriously. argh. this has been causing me to smoke more than usual. argh. it still hasn't become an addiction. just a temporary solution to the mess thats been created inside my mind.

i've been so moody lately, i've been staying home for the past week. i don't feel like riding, neither do i feel like doing anything. i've a new frame, new downhill bike, but i just don't feel like leaving my place. seriously, i want my life back. si kiat's in army, hafiz don't know what he doing, jia ming working. fuck. i hope coming tuesday at zouk would turn out well and i won't stone in there like how i'm stoning at home everyday.

results out in a week from now. i've exactly one week to enjoy which i don't think i would before i face the truth. sigh. i don't even know where i'm going in life anymore. no hopes, no dreams. fuck. i want my life back. argh.

sign,sealed&delivered @ 6.03am