early wednesday morning.

hey...

just finished "alot like love" again.
it just made me miss someone again.
oh my.
talked to her bestie bout her just now.
yeah.
maybe i do miss her.
i lied when i said i won't be coming back.
i lied when i said i gave up on us.
but yeah.
i probably won't have the guts to tell you.
thats why i'm writing this.
i gave so much to you.
and yeah.
i still remember the good times and the bad.
you were the only girl who ever stood by me,
through the tough times and the bad.
the only girl who ever really understood me.
but...
i guess whenever we're together,
i hurt you more,
each time we got closer.
i'm pretty sure you were the only girl that i ever said ilu to.
i still remember that very first date to esplanade
that very first kiss.
and that very first time you said ilu on the phone.
maybe it wasn't love.
maybe it was just alot like love...
i don't know.
you'll probably be reading this.
and you probably know who you are.
i need you.
and i miss you.