early wednesday morning.

hey...

just finished "alot like love" again.
it just made me miss someone again.
oh my.
talked to her bestie bout her just now.
yeah.
maybe i do miss her.
i lied when i said i won't be coming back.
i lied when i said i gave up on us.
but yeah.
i probably won't have the guts to tell you.
thats why i'm writing this.
i gave so much to you.
and yeah.
i still remember the good times and the bad.
you were the only girl who ever stood by me,
through the tough times and the bad.
the only girl who ever really understood me.
but...
i guess whenever we're together,
i hurt you more,
each time we got closer.
i'm pretty sure you were the only girl that i ever said ilu to.
i still remember that very first date to esplanade
that very first kiss.
and that very first time you said ilu on the phone.
maybe it wasn't love.
maybe it was just alot like love...
i don't know.
you'll probably be reading this.
and you probably know who you are.
i need you.
and i miss you.

early wednesday morning

oh hello!

ahh. comp's coming. feeling the need to push myself.
i forsee like i will get top 3 because i believe i'm one of the top mtb riders in singapore.
but in someway, my tricks are not getting there yet.
maybe i care too much bout style.
ahhhh.
been landing my 360s all day long but i'm still not happy with it.
i don't know.
wrecking my brain out, been trying all kinda variations.
i can't get my inverts or tables right either.
maybe i push too hard.
ahhh. comp's coming.
its my proving ground.
first comp, kinda psyched, kinda nervous, but at the same time kinda looking forward to it.
maybe john was right,
i shouldn't join a comp just because i wanna win,
the fun with friends is what matters the most.
but come to think of it.
almost all mtb riders are suckers.
so much politics, too lil' fun.
fuck you.
thats why i rather hang out with bmx-ers.
and thats why i bring my bmx style in.
i ride better than most of you,
yet you guys are still being arrogant, ignorant, self-centred bastards.
you should spend your time talking on your riding shitheads.
ahhh. even if i wasn't in all your online rants,
i still feel the need to let you realise how much you guys suck at riding.
come this 27th.
i will do my best.
and the rest shall fall.
try me boys.




ahhh.i so badly wanna win.
and this is my bike. :)
clean,brakeless. its the sex yo.

mid tuesday afternoon

the take's over, the muthaphuckking break's over!!!

ahhh. couldn't resist. can't get it outta my mind. anyway, yeah, been really irritated over the past week. haha. nvm. means i ride more and progress more. anyway, was out riding street with the guys around batok yest again and then, tada, i saw something i always wanted to try since a i don't know when, a 180 down the unloading bay. hahaha. which is bout. hmmm. i dont know. maybe 6-7steps? ate shit on the first 3 tries but i pulled off the 4th so cleanly. jyeahhh! hahaha. everyone was clapping so yeah, i'm psyched bout it. thanks for pushing me guys.

oh yeah, last friday, i was out with luke pp and his 2 poly friends jiehao and qixiang (birthday boy!), 2 reallyreally nice guys and yeah, damn they've a great sense of humour too. hahaha. and luke pp, please don't feel left out if you're the only non-smoker. hahahahahaha!!! dined at spaggedies, and went to harry's bar after. felt bad that qixiang had to settle all the bill even though its his birthday. but yeah, for the amount of fun we had, it was priceless. thanks for the fun night guys, especially you qixiang.

anyway, yeah. i'm bored everyday, i don't have anything to do, don't have anything to look forward to. life's been really boring. nvm. samantha josephine kay! u better keep your promise. hahahaha. ciao guys. be back soon!

early thursday morning

why am I always up at like 7am everyday!!! arghhh!!! super irritating. bores the crap outta me man!

early wednesday evening

heyyy. its been awhile. life's been pretty boring. nothing much to say. hahaha. just download cs 1.6 last week. shit man, been 2-3years since i last played. hahaha. but okay la, still ain't that bad. fun playing with my own friends though.

been awhile since i went out to catch a movie or something. life's been all bout sleeping, waking up, cs-ing, ride, come back and sleep and the cycle continues. jia lat la konrad! how?! hahahahah.

october 16th please come soon.
oh man, come to think of it, i haven't even attended my napfas yet. hahaha. oh well, pull-up isn't one of my worries anymore. 12 isn't a problem, i could pull 17finally. hahahah. shit man, to think i was struggling to do even 6 in sec4. weak la huh. haha.

oh man, think i should go and ride later, but weather's looking pretty bad. yikes! yeap, i shall end my rants here. ciaoooo!

late wednesday morning

heyyy!

sorry for the lack of blogs recently, lappie went for service bout 2 weeks back. anyway, its been a shitty month for me. been lazing around the house yet again and been reminiscing bout lotsa stuff. been shopping alot lately ever since the gss started and shit, its gonna end soon. and guess what, i finally got my eyebrow pierced like 2 days back, kinda a hasty decision. but no regrets, gotta get inked again soon. desgin be up soon. hahaha. anyway, was drinking at my place with fab, watt and alvin last night cos it was watt's belated b'day, shit yo, too much alcohol! one almost new bottle of absolut mandarin from me, and one new bottle of london dry gin frm watt. all of us ended up getting really intoxicated and they after smoking countless cigs, we ended up walking over to toh guan to get some ba chor mee. hahahaha. it was really hilarious, fab fell into this ditch and he didn't even know til he was lying on the ground. hahahahaha! kudos to you fab! and the rest of us tried our very best to be sober. ahhh. fun night drinking, a shot of booze a day keeps the doctor at bay! haha.

been riding alot recently too. getting my style right. and yeah, been quite hapyp with it so far.

my enlistment date is october 16th!!! tekong here i come.

mid friday evening

saw someone yesterday.
didn't believed what everyone was telling me,
but yeah,
seeing is believing.
seems like you've moved on pretty well.
glad that you've found a guy that makes you happy,
sorry i wasn't good enough,
and i wish you all the best with him babe!

you should know who you are.
there's always a special place somewhere in my heart for you. :)