early tuesday morning

sup yo. haha. been a great week. =)

turned 18 on friday, oh well, went to zouk with kelvin, jian zhong, sikiat and jiaming. haha. oh well, had a blast there even though all of us weren't really cool with dancing to house music. grrr. haha. anyway, had my haircut today, oh my, why is it that i always cutting my hair after? went to thin it down. oh well, gonna keep it shaggy again. looks better i guess.

anyway, i'm gonna drop by k.l later on with mum and sis. yup. shopping la! haha. gonna cont christmas shopping. already got a few tops frm a-x and guess. and i got 3 pairs of ck today. that adds to the collection . hahaha. sis told me the gucci belts is retailing at bout 360sgd over there. hmmm, thats bout 80 off retail. might give it a shot, see how it goes. haha. pay day came early. luckily for me! haha.

and i'm gonna change some stuffs on my bike too, rear wheel is getting done up right now, changing my bar, stem and crank probably by week-end. yeap. and the other day, i was talking to habel bout getting a pit-bike, oh, and it seems he's got some good deals off it. yeap! hahaha. i'm getting one for christmas, fuck, oh course i'm paying for it myself. haha. yeahhh. gonna go around riding round the neighbourhood in the middle of the night. carparks and streetswill have a whole new meaning to it!

ahhh. i don't have much more to buy cept a belt, shoes which i had yet to decide on fallen or emerica and my birkenstock slippers which is outta my size. argh. burberry still doesn't have my brown polo too. went to check yest when i was out with syaz. damn! oh well, i already got what i wanted, so yeah man! hahaha. probably dropping by zouk on wednesday again. mambo night biatch! haha

yup. gotta grab some sleep before i wake up in 2 hours time. and oh yes, i'm going out with her on sat. eeeyyyyyeeaaah! =) nights! ciao!

signed,sealed & delivered @ 4.30.am

early thursday morning.

16hours from my final paper and 24hours from turning 18, i'm just feeling oh so bummed. nothing's been going really well, oh well, not til coming friday i guess. gonna partyyyyy. yeahhh. best thing is all my best-buds gonna be there. yeap. common test been shit by the way, i skipped maths paper on tuesday because i was down with fever, i can't really be bothered to mug. something's been bothering me. yeah, i'm gonna ride more after my birthday to keep my mind off those unhappy thoughts. ahhh. i really need a break from all these! grrr. anyway, si kiat and jia ming forced me to work next week when i'm supposed to be hanging out or something, oh well, gives a shit, gonna skip one day of work at least. been too lazy to work and i don't really need the spare dough anyway.

and oh yeah, been bored and been catching alot of shows recently, heartbreak kid was hilarious, hitman was action packed and city of god, speechless, an explicit in depth show bout thugs and stuff in rio de janerio in brazil.

oh yeah, done my christmas shopping too, 2guess tops, 2 a-x tops, now i'm waiting for a few bottoms, which i'm really picky bout. i've too few but the selection's really limited too. oh well, don't have much left in my bank after my birthday, damn. nvm, pay's coming anyway. upgrading stuffs on my bmx too. ohh. spending season. retail theraphy works.

anyway, gotta go eat my dinner, yeah i know its late, don't really have an appetite, well, just eating for the sake of it. ciao

early monday morning

there're so many things i wanna say.
but it ain't coming outta my mouth.
its just something i had rather keep to myself,
and not let you know...
why is it that whenever i start to believe in someone,
i'll never fail to lose that person...
love is just a word to me from here on,
neither a feeling,
nor a belief.
truth is,
it hurts,
and i've lose faith in it.
the things you said,
keeps repeating in my mind,
like a record player.
uncontrollably,
it rolled down my cheek,
i just figured something out today,
that you felt the same way at one point of time,
but those mishaps caused you to lose faith in me,
why?
tell me why please?
what have i ever done,
to give you a reason,
to hurt me like that?
there's just so many questions,
but i'm afraid of all the answers...

you were the one i believed in girl, but now, i should just walk away silently...

early saturday morning

Days felt like months when you were away.
I really hoped things would work out,
after you being there time after time,
after all the happiness and smiles you brought.
I wished that we would never have met,
so that i would've save both of us from this moment.
I thought everything was going so well,
I thought maybe it had work out somehow.
21st november will be always be a day thats special,
that very first time,
that very first date.
so many times,
my hands were close to yours,
but i just didn't have the guts to hold it.
when you walked away,
i count the steps that you take.
and remember the time i said,
the feeling of knowing that someone is there whenever you wake up,
yes,
you gave me that joy.
now that its gone,
all i can do is reminisce bout the past,
and wonder where i've gone wrong.
maybe i just wasn't good enough,
maybe i just wasn't your sort.
i would do anything,
to see that smile of yours again,
the smile that never fail to put one my face,
the smile that caught my eye.
thanks for everything,
and it will end here.

you left me speechless tonight.

late thursday night

suppp. woooots! i finally got inked yesterday! well well well. hahaha. the pics are below, anyway, was out on a date with someone yesterday, and yeap, it went really well, at least for me. and i really had a great time with her, its a feeling i've not felt in a long while. =) ahhh. she was a lil late at the beginning but oh well. hahaha. yeap, she was there when i got inked, and damn, i'm not gonna lie, it does hurt, especially the last letter D because its right at the hip bone. hahaha. ah, the shading hurt like crap but oh well, it was still manageable, nothing that will make me squirm or scream or whatever. haha. after that we chilled at starbucks and yeah, sent her home after. and yeap, i had a great time, and i hope there'll definately be a next time. hahaha. ahhh. she totally made my day. i'm just so happy. hadn't felt like this in a long while. =)

yeap, she's going overseas tomorrow anyway. so yeah, i'll spend this weekend riding. yeap, hadn't done that in a long while but yeah. looking forward to it. haha. anyway, i'll blog again tomorrow, kinda tired now. ciao!

signed, sealed and delivered @ 11.49pm
there's something about you, that caught my eye like no other.

early saturday morning.

ahhh. suppp.

today i learned a very important lesson in bmx, a high speed 180 7step gap will result in my neck hurting, a sprained left wrist, an oh so heavy left arm and multiple abrasions. but i still walked away with pride. =) go big or go home biatch! though it hurts like fuck, but oh well, crashing is part and parcel of learning. i had the guts to try it, walked away bummed, and still, i wanna do it again when i'm better. going to bed now. hope she replies.

lets see how i feel when i wake up! ciao!

signed,sealed & delivered @ 5.05am

late friday morning.

heyo.

been an alright week i guess. although something shitty happened last saturday, oh well. it will be the last time i ever go out with her. fuck. got slapped for nothing. argh. it never pay to be the nice guy huh. anyway, thank you xy for cheering me up yeah. =) ahhh. for the past 3 days, i've been sleeping for only 3 and a half hours everyday. and i'm feeling so bummed now. skipped work and went to ride last night, kinda fucked my left ankle again. oh well, its always giving me problems. and i think i'm going down town to ride tonight.

anyway, recently, there's been someone that has been really nice. i don't really know how you feel, but yeah. =) had a great chat with you on wednesday, hadn't talked to anyone for 4hours for sucha long time! haha. but yeah, you should get how i feel. and yeah, i'm pretty stoked bout next wednesday.

anyway, gotta get my tattoo done this coming wednesday, like finally. eeeyyyyeaaahhh! gotta go for now, blog again soon.

sign,sealed & delivered @ 10.17am